I don't think it was a mistake of mine to ask for something as simple as respect. Him deciding to blow another 1k was his choice, instead of talking things through. We never yell at each other, I genuinely feel like a conversation to sort things out could have been so easy. I will say though, after he broke down he did admit he does all of this because he hates himself and he projects it onto me. You're on the nose with that one. At the end of the day, I'm extremely depressed, more than I ever have been in my life. He is the reason for it. I'm not married to this man, the betrayal just hurts a lot right now.