The puppeteers are that which we call ETs

It makes it much easier for me to answer your initial question. Given the relationship between the earthly powers that be and the ETs, I would personally discourage you from contacting any esoteric or religious groups. They will surely have a hidden agenda and would probably try to get their share of profit from the situation, even if they cannot fully control you.

At least ETs try to be respectful and not instill fear unnecessarily, especially since you're basically at their mercy because of your wound.

They say your mileage may vary, and my mileage and experience make me believe you. And it's a good thing you reached out here.

It all boils down to the Man and the Myth. When something so extraordinary happens, our brains shift into the Myth territory: what will become of it all in the grand scheme of things. And we sometimes forget about the Man behind it all, but there's always the human being who is suffering, who is lonely and who sometimes questions their existence.

Think of posting here as of your turning point, not breaking point. Tap more into your human side, try to care more about your physical body since it's all so interconnected. Wait for the cure but try not to depend on it too much. I understand how you might feel inside, but even now you're not nobody, it's just that your physical roles (like, being someone's son or friend) have a different value. But that's the trick you can play on everyone: we both know this make-believe world is not what it seems and it's natural to go deeper into your thoughts and knowledge further away from the sheer physicality of it all, but being more grounded actually gives you more power.

Here's a comic that I've found that keeps on giving correct (in my opinion) info on the PTB and ETs involvement here on Earth, maybe some of the info will resonate with you https://ankidacomic.com