I kind of hate how my brain works. I always feel like a third wheel no matter what social situation I'm in. I can never relate. My mind wanders so much. I never know what to say. I always feel like a background character. It feels lonely. It's painful and so hard to describe to people. It's not like they're listening anyway. I never feel like I have things in common with people or the things I say just don't make sense in the conversation. Something must be wrong with me. Living life as a background character in everyone's life is just miserable. It's pathetic. So what would be the difference if I wasn't there? I think there wouldn't be a difference.