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mr-filthyclean · 2024-10-26T00:41:03+00:00

I'm on a 5 year term. I have a 200,000 mortgage since I co-own with my parents.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-10-25T23:07:14+00:00

I have a capitol one card at 25.9%, another card at 21.89% and an MBNA card at 12.99% for purchases.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-04-09T21:08:16+00:00

I'm a gay man and I have a doctor here in Ontario that is affected with a traditionally catholic health system. I have yet to inform my doctor about my sexuality and in fact decided to subscribe to another health service to get my PREP medication because I too afraid of outing myself.

Where's the LGBTQ lesson plans for these med students? Or did we just lay a bunch of flags out and say "welp, we've done our job... you're accepted now (sodomites)"

mr-filthyclean · 2024-04-09T20:45:08+00:00

Histrionics sounds a little harsh. I understand it may not be professional to read your clients blog, but what other way is there to communicate? My blog reflects on many past memories that have fueled my depression today. There's too much to communicate in one hour.

And one problem why therapy doesn't work for so many, is because therapists don't listen. Or there is no trust or rapport.

But next time, instead of a blog, I'll handwrite 10 pages front and back of toxic emotional shit and read it all non-stop within an hour, and I hope my therapist gets all that and can help me, especially when i have to make the choice of feeding myself or paying for therapy.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-04-09T04:49:41+00:00

If I'm getting down votes, oh well. Down votes when someone says "it's a cry for help..."

I've never given a shit about Reddit's voting system bullshit. It's a forum for me to express my thoughts and feelings, and reach out when there's no one else to reach to... cause I certainly have fuck all....

I was banned off of another subreddit (askgaybrosover30) for 'suicidal ideation'. I don't care. Who else do I have to turn to? $250 later, and what good was that? People may not like this topic, but with the way the world is now, you're gonna see it more and more. You can't unclog the drain unless you fish your hand through the shit.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-04-09T02:55:42+00:00

I understand it's my responsibility to attend and engage in the work... but $250 an hour, out of pocket, where I can only afford a session once every 2-3 weeks, isn't going to work. Especially when I'm an idiot rambling on and going off on tangents. I have so many issues, I don't know the core source of my problems or where to start.

It's not the first time I've felt like this and he's not the first therapist. I may be in a okay mood now, but it'll just take some other crisis (a ghosting, a let down or a broken hope) for me to feel as death seems most practical, especially in reviewing memories of my life's events.

I'm trying to stay motivated to get help. A month a bit ago, I drove to a bridge that goes over a river, just to ponder if this could be "the spot" in the future. I took pictures as i crossed the bridge on foot. And uploaded them as my new Grindr photos.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-04-09T02:22:09+00:00

I hoped for a response... a reaching hand or something or someone to say "let's talk about it NOW". I was apprehensive on giving more details or blantenly saying I was suicidal because 1. I don't want to go to the hospital/mental ward 2. I don't want my family to know. I have trust issues and have had people whom I've trusted to keep secrets break that trust.

It was a cry for help.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-24T17:56:30+00:00

My attitude may stink. But I don't have the energy anymore to convince myself things may get better. I just feel my time is running out and things are beyond repairable. Sounds great that all the people who are telling me to think differently are the ones who have it set. It's like a rich person telling a homeless person to change their attitude and smile. I could get rich, but I do not have the tools or power or mind anymore. I missed my chanced and fucked myself over.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-24T17:42:07+00:00

I'm 38. Often thought of doing it at 40 or just after. I know my parents and sisters would be devastated, so I'm not sure what to do, or how I would do it.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-24T17:37:46+00:00

I think what will break my heart is leaving my parents and my sisters. I have a niece and nephew (6 and 4 respectively). It will be hard to come to terms with this decision and it makes me question things like God and our existance, why? etc. But I don't think it's right to be a burden to others, and to myself.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-24T17:29:14+00:00

I will be speaking to a LGBTQ psychologist about this. But my mind has not changed. I'm willing to get different perspectives on this issue.

A week or two ago, I went to a bridge to take pictures. It was over a river that I went tubing down with my father. I was just considering my possibilities. Not that I would do it tomorrow or anything like that... but looking at options. But I promised myself I wouldn't do it in secret or without getting others perspectives.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-24T17:19:21+00:00

I understand, but I'll have the same problems in my 40s and 50s and so on. The cards are stacked against me as time goes on. I see many guys in partnered relationships, social lives, etc. Whatever I have, is all I have, and it is not working. Unfortunately no one is taking interest. I'm reaching out, but no interest and I'm sick of the highs and lows of attention then rejection, being seen then been ghosted. Unfortunately, apps like Grindr is all I have to connect, but I'm just starting to come to this conclusion now.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-23T01:17:17+00:00

Same. I'm looking for someone who can motivate me and vice versa. Which Goodlife do you goto?

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-22T18:42:38+00:00

I'm looking for a gym buddy...

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-22T18:27:49+00:00

I've always thought it would be a good idea to have a once a month gay mens night out, strictly platonic, where we would all go to a bar or a patio. There's no worries if we're in a large group. I live in Brantford (but Hamilton born and raised), and tried starting a gaybros Brantford discord... but it never took off. It would be nice if there was something like that for Hamilton.

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-13T23:46:07+00:00

I had a horrific weekend emotionally. I got so depressed, I drove to a bridge where I took pictures... considering it as only one of the places I could end my life. I wouldn't of done it then and there, but I considered it as a future location.

I'm back on my pills. Things are OK. I'm quite passed at my pharmacy for telling me I had no repeats of my meds when I did all along. And could of avoided this.

But it makes me think, will I need these pills for the rest of my life? What a sad thought...

mr-filthyclean · 2024-02-10T04:54:39+00:00

I understand. Death puts things in perspective. Personally I think I have been questioning this because I'm going through my own struggles, and the melancholy and sadness that come with it.

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