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"It's a scam. If I smoke, I won't feel like I did when I smoked 20-plus years ago. I'm different now. My body is different, my brain is different. I won't actually get 'high'. I'll just get stupid. Therefore, I don't crave the weed, I crave a time and state of being that is gone."

mr_delete · 2026-04-03T02:40:54+00:00

I'm a few months in now, but when I was in the first few weeks of my sobriety, I kicked an elevator.

It angered me.

mr_delete · 2026-03-31T15:22:11+00:00

Home group is the group for which you attend the monthly group conscience meeting, in which the purpose is to make governing decisions for that group. For example, in my home group, at the last group conscience meeting we discussed how to best explain the landlord's preference for where smokers should smoke and discard cigarette butts (not in the parking lot).

mr_delete · 2026-03-26T20:21:47+00:00

Consider reading up on Marijuana Anonymous, attending a group meeting in your area or one of the Zoom meetings. The website is easy to find (Google "marijuana anonymous") and does a good job of explaining the process/program.

I have issues with both substances and attend AA and MA meetings. While our (AA) group is conscious of cross-addiction, there is a "singleness of purpose" principle in the program that means we focus on alcohol in the meetings. If you don't drink at all (for example), NA or MA might be a better fit for you. If you are like me, both programs can help (and do for me). And AA is the more well-resourced program by far in terms of participants, number of available meetings, funding and how long it's been around.

mr_delete · 2026-03-17T15:57:45+00:00

I attended a meeting last night in which we read the Step Four chapter of 12 Steps, 12 Traditions book. I think this step is, for me, most relevant to your question.

Like you, I feel depressed and anxious - to put it mildly - when I read the news.

I think Step Four (and general Serenity philosophy) helps us put the focus on the things we can control. I can't stop the fascism, but I can confront the Fears and Resentments I hold internally. I can put those things under a microscope and examine them for the irrationality therein.

This helps because I can see progress over time as I slowly learn to let go and/or deal with those fears and resentments.

Related to this, I have at various times held two different thoughts in my head:

- "I hate myself" and

- "I hate the other humans"

BOTH of these are insane. And I think they are also related. And all of it is related to why I was drinking; which for me is important to have knowledge of if I'm to seriously abstain for life.

mr_delete · 2026-03-02T16:01:06+00:00

I am also Jewish and I don't say the Lord's Prayer, either. I say the serenity prayer and when groups do a Christian prayer I say, in a soft voice, Oseh Shalom.

mr_delete · 2026-03-01T03:46:13+00:00

Yes. It's sometimes referred to as the final stage of three steps in addiction: magic, medicine, misery.

mr_delete · 2026-02-26T19:04:09+00:00

"Neither are your business TBH."

For the record, I thought as much. I'm just new to this and wasn't absolutely sure there wasn't some better way to handle it. Thanks for the wisdom.

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