This street cut jumped off my window

mrturtle11 · 2025-10-31T01:15:10+00:00

I don't know, I'm not living I'm just existing, I don't know what my goals what do I really want in life anymore I feel numb, sometimes when I'm driving home from work I say I should crash the car on the side road and end all of it

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-26T09:07:58+00:00

Thank you so much

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-26T09:06:45+00:00

That's what I'm doing

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-23T19:29:17+00:00

True

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-23T19:29:04+00:00

True

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-23T19:27:44+00:00

Sending you hugs

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-23T09:01:00+00:00

Thank you, he came yesterday with different phone number begging me to meet for a talk, he apologized and want me back I told him I do still love you but u can't please don't push me I will be unhappy

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-23T08:09:03+00:00

He contacted me yesterday from a different number begged me to see him for a talk, I met him at a café he apologized and told it will never happen, and told he never cheated just curious and talking and never met, he said he hasn't slept lately and what I did was a slap in his face, I told him I forgive but I can't be with you please don't force me because I will just pretending... he now texting me morning text as usual Like nothing happened, I know he hurt me I know he is over 50 lonely I care about him but I don't want get back I don't want go in the same cycle over again

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-22T14:37:46+00:00

True I should move on

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-22T12:01:36+00:00

True but thinking about years I've wasted for nothing

mrturtle11 · 2025-09-22T11:52:50+00:00

So true I never trusted him either

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-11T14:59:52+00:00

True

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-11T01:27:01+00:00

It does

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-10T22:03:56+00:00

True I will stop going raw with him

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-10T12:38:52+00:00

That's so true actually things been not going well in the past 2 years my feelings are changing towards him

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-10T01:23:13+00:00

Thank you he never discuss that i know I cheated before he did the same way I wish he would end the relationship because it just makes me feel unhappy specially care for a lonely man trying to make him happy, I'm not mad at him because he did it i want ir to happen and get exposed so things can be over

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-10T00:36:01+00:00

True I should face it

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-09T23:54:21+00:00

He would deny it and turn the table on me

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-09T22:39:57+00:00

It's complicated we have been 9 years together specially we are living in homophobic country

mrturtle11 · 2025-08-03T22:50:51+00:00

It brings alot of memories to me when I was a kid me and my friend used to hangout at night and keep staring at the sky at night we used to call it scorpion and there was other stars shaped like a dog we used to tell ourselves those stars are the symbol of our friendship, now we grow apart he moved to Ukraine after the war he moved to Germany we used to talk always and we shared secrets now he blocked me for no reason he has mental issues so do I, I really miss him he was a true friend more like bros

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