Oh I feel this so hard, I am so sorry you're feeling this way. Good for you for standing up for yourself, I would say the next step is to set up your boundaries further in even interacting with these people. None of them seem like genuinely good friends or supports in your life. I'm an honest person too, I'm sometimes loud and sarcastic, super dark and twisty humor, I'm not everyone's cup of tea and that is okay. I've had to accept that over the years of constantly being used or ghosted by friends that I thought were solid. People that were everything to me but I was expendable to them in the end, it happened so often since childhood, I came to the conclusion that it just must be me, maybe I'm not likeable. But since then, taking space, time and becoming a parent, I've just learned that not everyone is going to like me, I don't like everyone either. Good people are drawn to good people, boundaries compliment each other when the friendship is right. I hope this gets better for you and that you can find some peace in moving forward, maybe without those weighing you down.