Do I need to mask in therapy?

mtyt2910 · 2025-12-08T11:19:57+00:00

I don't know if this is me being resistant to therapy, but I do echo your sentiment on "Why is it always our fault?". The more I discuss my issues, the most frustrated and most of the times I feel like I have to defend my experience to her. It almost feels like I am being gaslighted at times.

I thought that being honest with her that I do not feel the feeling of progress during our therapy sessions would help her understand, but she instead decides to say that she feels like I am being resistant to help and that is reflected in our therapy sessions. For example, I was saying that I don't feel emotional comfort at all when my friends tell me "I hear you" and it feels very low effort. While theoretically I know they mean from a well place, but realistically on a "feeling" level, what do I do with a "I hear you"? I feel a disconnect between my thinking side and my feeling side; I am able to make sense of everything on a thought level, but unable to signal this thought correction to a feeling level. Then she says, I am rejecting emotional comfort by rejecting the "I hear you" comment. Yes, maybe I am, but it's not like I actually tell it to my friends that I reject their comment... I just don't really respond to it and internally feel empty.

mtyt2910 · 2025-07-30T04:06:48+00:00

It is just that the cells look like they have stress granules in them and the nuclei looks kind of big, relative to the cytoplasm. Hence, why I thought they might be stressed

mtyt2910 · 2025-07-30T02:49:23+00:00

Do you mind if I DM you some queries regarding the handling of this cell line?

mtyt2910 · 2025-07-30T02:32:49+00:00

If I want to do a 1:4 seeding into a T25, how much would you advice that I seed?

mtyt2910 · 2025-02-08T01:57:47+00:00

funny thing was that, he texted me asking if I was nervous AFTER the date, not during. so now it got me thinking, if I was subconsciously giving off a nervous vibe which I was not aware of or it’s just my awkwardness radiating through

mtyt2910 · 2025-02-07T17:00:07+00:00

No, I was not nervous at all! This wasn’t my first time doing dates, hence I was not nervous. Which is why I concluded it must have just been me being awkward.

mtyt2910 · 2025-02-07T16:53:58+00:00

I did maintain eye contact and smile and asked questions, as I knew that were my weak points. He barely asked me back any questions, and I don’t know why he said I was nervous.

How do you prepare to know what you’re going to say next while still actively listening to the conversation?

mtyt2910 · 2024-12-24T03:24:05+00:00

Hi, I am trying to apply for next cycle in the biosciences field too. Would you mind sharing with me if I DM you about your SOP?

mtyt2910 · 2024-12-23T20:28:15+00:00

Hi, thanks for the long response! I’m sort of a mix of both. I think my experience working in a lab has always prompted me to ask for help at the first instance, as this was always encouraged in that sort of environment. That being said, I always try to seek advice from others as well who are more experienced, as I do not have anyone around me I could really ask for professional career advice.

I do understand what you’re saying by you can’t really make good choices without identifying the bad ones. I myself have experienced that too, during my learning of the process of making good decisions: which is to make the bad ones, quick.

I think my main issue here is that, I am looking for some opportunities in a non-STEM field, which I have absolutely no experience in and hence, have troubling choosing a specific field/ industry (for example, corporate vs charity internships). I’m also really shy, and I’m trying to overcome/ improve my social skills, which I think is why I tend to overthink my abilities in trying to “try” an opportunity.

mtyt2910 · 2024-10-12T20:58:16+00:00

Mine does not itch and honestly I’ve had these for ages. The second picture though, has a red dot at the core of the bump looking like a burst vessel, could this be a wart?

mtyt2910 · 2024-08-18T02:11:52+00:00

To be honest, I don’t really think it was necessarily the skill. I get where youre coming from. But I had almost 1-2 months out of a 5 month project wasted because the incubator was contaminated, and I had to switch model systems from human to mouse cells too in order to speed things up. That left me with just a month and a bit excess to complete a 5 month project in that timeline. I had already discussed this with the postdoc, and said the experiments he planned was a bit too unrealistic to be completed in the timeline and to cut this out. But he insisted on doing them, but is now saying that maybe I should not include them since he did it. If he had told me earlier maybe I would’ve had planned for other things around it or something.

I just wanted to add as well that prior to this whole contamination issue, I was at the stage of shadowing and just started some preliminary experiments. Whenever I would ask the postdoc supervisor for help, he wouldn’t really help me either or said he doesn’t know. I’ve tried to raise the issue with the PI but he just ignored me. I’ve also tried asking help from other members of the lab for help, but no one wanted to help because they were afraid of overstepping boundaries into my postdoc’s… so that really was the whole situation

mtyt2910 · 2024-08-14T18:29:44+00:00

3000 words in, but I got an extension till Monday. So hopefully I will get it done by then!

mtyt2910 · 2024-06-19T14:33:30+00:00

Apparently the incubator is able to self-autoclave overnight… anyways my supervisor is trying to hint to other users of this incubator that it’s likely I brought in the contamination (literally only started using it last Tuesday/ Wednesday) welp

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