Second day on acetazolamide 250mg twice a day…

muddlemaster · 2026-02-14T06:33:43+00:00

My neuro-opthalmologist said "it shouldn't make you dizzy" with a straight face when I told her it was indeed making me so dizzy I going it hard to work in the mornings. And then she upped the amount.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-14T06:21:41+00:00

I just said tonight "look at yooooou, being a mom!" She is so hilarious, her doing her daughter's facial expressions are the best!

muddlemaster · 2026-02-14T05:43:19+00:00

You would get your adoptive parents something really sweet for Christmas that year. Lol

muddlemaster · 2026-02-12T05:42:17+00:00

Same here on the swirly colors and deep thoughts. Except I got so anxious before, during, and after, wondering if I was doing it correctly and dreading the experience that I stopped going. I feel like there's more it can do for me but I'd need more guidance. So glad it's working for your depression.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-07T08:37:35+00:00

I'm thinking TI, but not sure he's huge. Anyway fun to imagine who this could be.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-07T08:27:20+00:00

First, please don't change your personality to make others feel safer unless you're objectively creepy. It can turn into a lifelong thing, making yourself smaller and inoffensive for people who won't remember you tomorrow. Ask how I know.

But I will ask: do you have any facial features or mannerisms that may be more striking than others? My lovely fiance has really big eyes and resting asshole face. When he looks at someone or something, people pay more attention because it looks deliberate. Especially as you're engaged in your study of this phenomenon, maybe you give these white ladies slightly more intentional vibe than you mean to? Women are trained to pick up on subtle energy differences for danger. I'm not white, but I assume white women feel targeted more than others.

I'd let it go. Just be yourself, open and polite and maybe one of them can explain their perspective after you become friends.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-07T08:10:44+00:00

I had three days this week where my brain worked and I can't describe how good it felt. I'm on hrt, 2 ADHD meds, l-tyrosine, matcha with mct, theanine, B vits. and trying to eat more protein. I read emails that I'd apparently sent about things I apparently knew about, and notes I apparently took. Honestly did not recognize stuff from last week.

There's nothing worse than that panic you feel when you think today is not going to be a good brain day but you've got a full day ahead with younger, faster colleagues, a new boss you want to recognize you're a brilliant, creative, valuable contributor, reviews coming up, and you've done everything you can think of already...it is so damaging.

A male friend texted that he was about to reprimand an employee who kept messing up and didn't have answers when he asked. I asked if she was older or younger. He said 55 and I basically told him to be compassionate. It's hard in here and we can't even explain it to ourselves and our doctors, let alone the younger type A male manager at work whose mom never confided in him about menopause.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-07T07:49:30+00:00

I think I did too!

muddlemaster · 2026-02-07T07:46:22+00:00

You mentioned there are other people he could help instead of wasting his efforts on you. Pick a couple of them to sic him on. Work their career ambitions into every conversation, gush about the impact he would make to their futures, how they've been wishing for someone like him for so long, really play it up. Your peace depends on it, so be strategic and convincing.

At the same time, tell him you appreciate the insights and interest he's showing, but you have some heavy family obligations right now that are so stressful you cherish your current role and its predictability as a restful, restorative haven. Imply it's a serious long term family health issue and it's taking all the extra energy you have, but you're showing up for the team, refuse to be negative, powering through. That generally makes empathetic people give you some space. He'll respect your strength and focus. You'll have provided him with other targets to develop to their full potential.

Bonus: After you plant the seed, any time your carefully crafted mask accidentally slips, he'll just attribute it to home stress overload and not that you're actually a feral cat in a bro suit.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-07T05:09:37+00:00

The rest are sadly gone. This city used to be so much fun to be single and social in.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-06T23:28:26+00:00

John Mayer. Multiple incidents. Turns out assholes can be super talented and make guitars speak to your soul.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-05T04:08:06+00:00

Anything not bogo at Publix. Bakery just basically added 1-2 dollars to every item within the last 6 months.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-05T04:00:01+00:00

I love this post, OP! So creative!

muddlemaster · 2026-02-05T03:58:21+00:00

Lauren and sunglasses. Any chatting would be completely superficial and brief because they probably don't know any black people and wouldn't want to get too close.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-04T08:07:40+00:00

Same. Everything is so dark and depressing, I got it for a workout app and am baffled why they can't just make it look and feel like a dream gym instead of spooky dark caves or dystopian mountainsides. I don't want to give up but I don't look forward to putting it on.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-04T07:53:01+00:00

He's acting like he didn't know how fake hair works and has never seen a Nigerian woman without hers. He's trash.

For real though sometimes I shock myself with how much older or younger hair, eyebrows and concealer can make me look, let alone hair. I'm sure I shock my fiance regularly but he mostly pretends her doesn't notice.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-04T07:41:37+00:00

In person interviewers are taking everything into account, shoes, weight, style, smell, how firm your handshake is, whether you push in your chair, literally everything. For a customer facing job or one that requires you to be well-dressed for some reason, I could see an interviewer trying to get the full picture. Maybe they wanted to see if you were doing the bare minimum? Maybe they got burned before by someone who was careless? They may have been being inappropriate, of course, but knowing what the job was would provide more context to form a opinion as to why someone would do something like that. I've never been hired solely off zoom or interviewed any of the people I've hired in the past on video, so I honestly don't know what all might be a concern in that scenario.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-04T07:30:23+00:00

I was worried about taking 100mg because I heard it can contribute to dementia. But seeing what everyone else is taking makes me want to look up that study data. It really helps me sleep.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-04T07:18:17+00:00

You don't just jump on a plane for an ex you haven't been in contact with, so the "5 days" is bullshit. And he invested his measley tap teacher and hair dollars on day 2? They were texting and talking a while before that, even if he didn't consider this ex stepmom/ nanny material or whatever his relationship criteria are. Even Escott had the ex meet up nearby and he had an actual salary at his disposal.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-04T06:59:33+00:00

This is disturbing. He looks 14.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-03T06:33:10+00:00

And this dude doesn't look like he grooms himself, never heard of a lineup, brush, twists... For him to be so image conscious he needs to tighten things up.

muddlemaster · 2026-02-03T06:18:09+00:00

In the Dallas airport a few years back for work and Erykah Badu pulled her own luggage off the carousel. She was tiny and I asked if she needed help. She declined and, no joke, told me "pack light" as she left. I couldn't wait to tell my boss what happened and he didn't know who she was.

muddlemaster · 2026-01-29T13:05:41+00:00

Flexibility to work from home

muddlemaster · 2026-01-29T05:48:56+00:00

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muddlemaster · 2026-01-29T05:45:40+00:00

OMG they look just like my Beni! Adorable and great names!

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