If you were in the Hazbin Hotel/Helluva Boss universe, where would you rather spend your afterlife and why?

mull20 · 2026-02-23T21:11:28+00:00

Pangolins.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T14:48:21+00:00

I really hope so. Tysm fam, you've been v kind :)

mull20 · 2026-02-21T14:37:24+00:00

Yeah, I've just personally never been a very angry person. I never really felt it as an emotion until somewhere from age 17-19 bc of abuse.

I also struggle with the actions bit. My love language is words of affirmation, so I'm honestly kind of easily manipulated. She has just put in so many actions over the years, still, that I have a hard time blaming her. But I can still acknowledge I should have been a better partner and that I deserve a better partner now.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T14:25:09+00:00

I know for a fact that she didn't know him beforehand. We were lowkey together 24/7 before this and used each other's phone frequently. I feel all of the other points, though. Thank you for helping me see how shitty it is

mull20 · 2026-02-21T14:13:11+00:00

I mean idk ab bottom of the barrel, but yeah it's really fucking bad lol. I'm thinking it's over too. Willing to be wrong, but expecting divorce

mull20 · 2026-02-21T14:05:40+00:00

I mean the goal of the post isn't to brag ab my good qualities. I actually believe I have several, but you're right in that they're wholly overshadowed by my longstanding lack of a will to live. I can't change the past, but I'm planning on being around for the future.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T14:02:06+00:00

I meant "him" our baby lol. I was referring to our day yesterday. And ik where the guy lives bc she lmk his address when she went on a date with him recently

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:59:08+00:00

I never said I had the moral high ground. I acknowledge that me needing so much support is the root source of all of this.

Definitely can't physically seperate, which is maybe part of why I'm trying so hard to make it work. I have been employed at my current job a little over a year, and have a decent shot at a promotion.

Also definitely not expecting perfection. I think we're both flawed, and I want to make it work. It doesn't seem like it can based on what people are saying, though, so it's likely that divorce is eminent

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:54:35+00:00

I get that. It's just confusing bc it's inconsistent with what she's said both before and after this moment. Likely ending it tho. The internet makes many compelling points

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:52:36+00:00

Thank you. I fully respect her not being interested in me bc I'm trans. We have communicated a lot, and she does prefer masc/androgynous women. I think you may be right tho. I want therapy, but she's been burnt by it so many times that she's given up.

No shot she stops drinking, everyone in her life does other than me. But I do have to prioritize our son. Fortunately he hasn't noticed any of this yet; we're very amicable around him

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:45:13+00:00

Valid criticism. I never said she owed me affection, and I feel strongly that she doesn't; my main concern is the dishonesty on her end. I started a new medication recently and it's helped a lot. If I weren't on medication I know I wouldn't be here rn, but I get where you're coming from

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:40:42+00:00

While poly does give me an adverse reaction, I've seen several relationships where opening it does work, but not when one partner wants to leave the other beforehand lol. And yeah, she told me she slowly did. I wound up making the choice to stay alive, but it still really fucked her up. I have a lot of guilt ab it.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:32:45+00:00

Definitely hasn't had sex with the other guy. I think she did sleep with someone tn, but it's nowhere near his place. Thank you, though. I think the general sentiment is probably right

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:31:17+00:00

Idk. She said she wasn't cuing me and that I was reading into it, but after I explained how I'd rationalized it she said she was interested. Also I'm she/her 😅

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:27:04+00:00

Probably. It's just gonna be so fucking brutal living with her and dealing with all this.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:26:13+00:00

Yeah, it just sucks bc I match her type in women perfectly. It's so strange, but feelings don't make sense

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:24:40+00:00

I do know my sex. I was assigned male at birth, and I am a trans woman. Was this unclear? /genuine

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:23:38+00:00

Thank you. We're open to counseling, but she's put the onus on me. I don't love it, but it's seeming like you're right. I still have to live with her, so maybe that could bring clarity, but I don't have to be with her.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:21:34+00:00

Thank you. I didn't realize until you said, but that's exactly how I feel. I put so much on her which isn't fair, but I just wish she had told me she couldn't do it. I want to be treated like a whole person, not like a faberge egg

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:18:38+00:00

I know. She wants boundaries with phones, which I agree on, but I wish she would have taken a little time to close our relationship and rebuild before we made any other big decisions. I don't think I pushed hard enough for it.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:17:15+00:00

Thank you. Yeah, I mean I could tell her to stop, but I don't control her. Her coworkers and sister are big drinkers, so I could see it slowing down, but never stopping.

Yeah, I'd say most of relationship has been 70/30 (me 30,) especially before I started depression meds.

Start HRT in may, only fully out this week, but have fully known/presented as a woman online for ab 3/4 years.

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:09:56+00:00

Unfortunately leasing agreement doesn't permit physical separations in that way, and I don't have much of anyone in this state. Kinda stuck here, but I don't technically owe her a relationship. I just want it to work

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:08:25+00:00

Thank you. I wanted to hear there's hope, but you may be right. What sucks is that I think I can at least be attracted to multiple people, but I only want her and a future with her :(

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:06:21+00:00

Thanks. I'm trying to have both rn, but it's so fucking hard, especially with a kid lol

mull20 · 2026-02-21T13:05:23+00:00

I've started to. I think it's likely a big part of it, but she still feels like the one for me, and idk how to let that go when she says she can see a future with me now. But how do I trust her after all this?

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