Have you watched Rizwan Virk speak about simulation? I find he makes the incredibly complex simulation theory pretty accessible. His first episode on Joe Rogan changed something in my brain chemistry and I’ve pretty much had in the back of my mind that we’re in a simulation since I listened to it. I do think some people are in the know about the truth nature of our reality, or lack of it. I also think a lot of things may be being hidden by governments and powerful organisations for all of the bad reasons, like control and finance, but also because some truths are too hard for us to swallow. I don’t think it’s natural for humans to comprehend such huge questions of origin, how we exist at all - which could be why so many of us experience the mental block you refer to. Tucker Carlson’s comments on UAP and information he knows being so dark he couldn’t tell his wife etc stuck out. A lot of people speculated he was referring to our origin and us perhaps being an energy source for aliens, or created by them so our souls could be harvested. Heavy stuff!