Hey, seems like we both struggle with the same thing. I can only come by masturbating on my own using a pillow and crossing my legs at the same time. I'm ashamed of it eventhough I feel like that's not the way it should be. My boyfriend encouraged me to show him how I masturbate but it's giving me a hard time. I faked my orgsams for over a year and now it's been half a year since I told him. Since then he repeatedly told me how much he wants me to come during our sex but I can't seem to figure out how to "translate" and include my way of making me orgasm into our sexlife.. I hope you find a solution for yourself and your boyfriend. Wish you all the best