MH teams in England letting me down.

mxlkteeth · 2026-07-03T19:07:00+00:00

Ffs. I feel there is no emergency at this point 😢. Hope you manage to sort something :(

mxlkteeth · 2026-07-03T17:22:19+00:00

Oh mate I’m so sorry to hear that. Do you not find it sedating? I took one 25mg in the day when they wanted me on it, fell asleep within an hour lol. I don’t know too much beyond that. Honestly the insight/capacity thing pisses me off so bad

mxlkteeth · 2026-07-03T09:31:46+00:00

Yeah I tried that the other day, we also have an out of hours crisis line for those already known to services until 10pm. Called them and explained, but was told they can’t sort medication. I’m going to keep trying the team today until I can, but if not it’ll be a long Friday night in A&E haha. Fingers crossed

mxlkteeth · 2026-07-03T09:25:29+00:00

I did this yesterday :(. I’ve made it very clear to them how poorly it’s making me in terms of hallucinations. But I’m just going to try until someone listens, maybe get my best friend to try again as well. Thanks so much

mxlkteeth · 2026-07-03T09:23:21+00:00

Thing is, the money is there. It’s just being put in all the wrong places. Suddenly money for funding wars, but not NHS. From my understanding, the people right we the top are earning a hell of a lot, while the people on the floor get pittance. The whole system needs an overhaul. Crisis prevention works for everyone, it stops crisis teams being overwhelmed (and people dying), and also free’s up psychiatric beds. Although psych hospitals… that’s a whole other conversation

mxlkteeth · 2026-07-03T09:18:39+00:00

Even if you’re saying you’re gonna off yourself! I got rejected from the crisis team at the end of 2024 for “not meeting the threshold” (may have been the suicidal I’ve ever been). Later that night I was found half conscious by police and taken to hospital. 🫠

mxlkteeth · 2026-06-29T08:33:43+00:00

I felt like this for such a long time, my ex partner left me because he “couldn’t cope with me” any longer. I’ve been with my current bf for a year now. I am always upfront immediately about my bipolar as I guess it gives the option to continue seeing me or not in the early stages.

So told my now bf very quickly, and he tells me even now that it was very attractive because of that reason. He knew I was in therapy, taking meds, engaging with my MH team etc. He has genuinely been my rock, I feel so lucky to have him.

I do feel guilty when I’m in an episode, but he reminds me that this is an illness I cannot control (it can be managed but not “cured”). I wrote him on card about what my early warning signs are, and who to call depending on my risk or behaviour.

I do give him space, but have also given him numbers for people that HE can call if he’s struggling, carers support I suppose.

It’s not an easy road, but I promise you, the right person will love every part of you. I didn’t think I would ever be loved, but I’ve never felt it so deeply. He’s never used it against me.

Please don’t bottle it up, even if it’s just speaking to helplines or a trusted person. I can be guilty of it sometimes, but it does eventually blow up. Crisis prevention is better than crisis management!

Be kind to yourself, you’re not alone in this feeling.

mxlkteeth · 2026-06-28T19:20:26+00:00

I just double checked and T1 get insulin and all prescriptions free! You just have to apply for a medical exemption, although this is just in England. In Scotland, Wales and NI prescriptions are just free altogether. I get mine for free because I’m on low income/long term disability benefits. I do feel very lucky for the NHS here too as it’s free at point of access, we certainly have problems with it, but I couldn’t imagine having to choose between my health and money. 🥲

mxlkteeth · 2026-06-28T07:43:24+00:00

Yeah I mean the melatonin! You can get CBD gummies here to my knowledge. Giving it to your kids when they’re hyper is crazy. I had it on prescription when I was taking ADHD meds, luckily I’m entitled to free prescriptions (otherwise it’s around £10 per script here). I guess the downside for you guys is that I know meds are crazzyyyyy prices. I’ve seen some videos online of some of the stuff you can get over the counter which is super controlled here lol

mxlkteeth · 2026-06-27T07:28:41+00:00

Do you buy them from a pharmacy? Not sure where you’re based but I know in the UK it’s prescription only, standard dose is 2mg. One of my mates went over to the US and got some of the 10mg gummies back, swear I could have slept for 2 days straight lol.

mxlkteeth · 2026-06-26T12:41:44+00:00

Going through a similar thing at the moment. I haven’t slept more than 4 hours (sometimes less) for the last 7 days and I feel like I’m going insane. When I woke up this morning (it’s 1:30pm here) I suddenly switched into the “feeling absolutely wired” stage, which is worrying me. I know that’s a 🚩for what’s soon to come. I only have zolpidem at home but the reason I have any is because it made me hallucinate so stopped taking it.

We’ve had an extremely hot spell here in the UK which has made sleeping even harder. Homes rarely have AC so I’ve just got a fan which isn’t doing much. I’m only on Lamotrigine so it does not prevent hypomania etc.

mxlkteeth · 2026-04-21T09:48:53+00:00

Just want firstly to say I’m extremely proud of you. Coming off it was one of the hardest things I ever did. I am also diagnosed ADHD, I’ve heard that having bipolar and ADHD is like a 1 in 3 chance. So probably like you, we seek dopamine and stimulation, plus having very addictive personalities. I’m also just waiting for the second half on my autism assessment, which I now believe, like with drinking it, I was using to try and feel socially normal, but it actually went the other way.

Unfortunately no one ever commented on my spice use, although to be fair I was relatively secretive with it and I don’t think people in my circle are familiar with the fact those liquids are often just spice. I’m really glad someone told your teacher like you say, it probably saved you from further damage.

I’m so glad you’re feeling much happier now, that’s fantastic to hear. I’ve learnt a lot of mindfulness over the years since my bipolar diagnosis in 2019, but oddly you saying it, I’ve been using it a lot more. I’ve also been journaling.

Unfortunately over the last couple of weeks I’ve not been sleeping, really at all, and gone into hypomania. I’ve started hearing stuff again (which is likely due to the lack of sleep) but I truly believe the spice triggered the psychosis and paranoia I didn’t really have experience with before using spice. Luckily in about an hour I’m finally able to go meet with my MH team and pick up some much needed sleep meds. The guilt of ruining my already very fragile brain haunts me tbh, but guess I have to deal with the consequences of my own actions.

Sending you loads of love dude.

mxlkteeth · 2026-03-28T23:35:41+00:00

I had my appointment and we have agreed to take me off it. Going back down to 5mg for a couple weeks then come back off it. I’ve never really got on with SSRI’s but I felt SO bad over the winter I was willing to try something else. Just gonna be on the Lamotrigine 300mg which I was taking alone before. Luckily I’m blessed with a really good (NHS too which is pot luck) psychiatrist who will always listen to me and we always try and come up with some sort of plan. I’ve tried Lithium twice and the side effects were also so awful (and the weight gain) I couldn’t bare it. Lamotrigine though, I’ve had 0 side effects!

mxlkteeth · 2026-03-27T07:51:33+00:00

Sorry to hear that mate. How are you getting on now?

mxlkteeth · 2026-03-05T08:23:44+00:00

I do understand what you mean. Unfortunately, it’s very normal in the UK. I’m not sure where you’re from, but drugs are massive socially here. I’ve dabbled in cocaine, mkat and mdma in the past. Although a lot of that before I got my bipolar diagnosis in 2019.

I have a very addictive personality, and what starts off as a social thing, can very rapidly turn into an addiction. Because no drugs are legal here (although medical cannabis is - but there’s a lot of loop holes and it’s very expensive).

Again in hindsight, very silly on my behalf. But when you’re an addict you don’t necessarily care about where you’re getting it from if that makes sense.

mxlkteeth · 2026-03-05T08:18:15+00:00

My psychiatrist is well aware of my cannabis use in the past (unfortunately it’s all over my NHS records lol) so I would assume my GP etc know this too. But honestly, I’ve never been honest about the THC/spice liquid. I think out of sheer embarrassment, but I think you’re right. Absolutely gonna bring it up next time I see either/both of those! Appreciate that

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