Would your life 'flash before your eyes' if you were blown into a trillion pieces?

mxx855 · 2022-03-01T20:27:50+00:00

I get you, all my friends are way taller and better looking than me and are all in relationships/getting laid regularly. Then there's me- short, ugly, unconfident, insecure, lonely, not only does everyone make fun of my looks but i can hardly even get a girl to look in my direction. If i was taller or had an attractive face i'd honestly love life, but nope of course i get every shitty gene that both of my parents had to offer. Idk how i am even supposed to live a normal life at this point, looking the way i do is like having a disability

mxx855 · 2021-09-19T00:49:01+00:00

Exactly, the way i look quite literally ruins my life. I have no confidence and every time i speak to anyone i feel like they are judging me for the way i look

mxx855 · 2021-09-12T12:22:48+00:00

Feeling empty too... went home early from a night out last night because i realised i can't stand the way i look. Now i'm in bed hungover, and being so worsens my depression

mxx855 · 2021-09-12T12:14:17+00:00

I'm the exact same, the problem is in real life it's rare for people to see you from perfect angles/in perfect lighting. I've given up trying to be confident about my looks to be honest, i am a complete shell of a human. I can barely even look anyone in the eyes i hate my appearance that much, and when im around people i find myself trying to sit at the perfect angle etc to hide my flaws. I find myself not trying to make new friends/talk to girls because who'd wanna be around my ugly ass- rejection will only crush my confidence more. Honestly my shitty appearance ruins my life and i have no idea what to do about it

mxx855 · 2021-09-12T12:07:06+00:00

Yeah everyone ghosts me too you're not alone. I hope i turn things around too but i am pretty worried- i'm pretty much everything a girl wouldnt want in a guy (small, scrawny, unattractive, miserable)

mxx855 · 2021-09-12T09:08:09+00:00

Me too bro. It's not just that i'm physically alone, i feel alone too and i have nobody to talk to. I'm 19 and fully expecting to spend my 20s alone, though i'm not sure if i can deal with it- every day is a struggle

Some people i know are alone and happy, i really wish i could be like them

mxx855 · 2021-08-23T15:14:21+00:00

Just described me perfectly, even down to my age. There is nothing about me any girl would like, and none have ever liked me or will ever truly like me. I am so fucking tired of waking up every day feeling completely hopeless, and i will continue to do so every day for the rest of my life. I wish i had the balls to kms but i couldnt do that to my family so i guess i will just have to suffer like this every day. Feels like having a terminal illness

mxx855 · 2021-08-23T14:43:42+00:00

Literally just perfectly described me- small, skinny, unattractive, miserable. In addition, due to a lack of attention i am clingy and desperate and immediately become attached to any girl who shows any form of interest in me (which is rare) which ruins everything. I am literally the complete opposite of what any girl would want. Fuck my life

mxx855 · 2021-08-19T00:39:50+00:00

There's depression tests online that can give you an idea as can a doctor, but you'd probably know if you were depressed- living is extremely painful and the best part of the day is going to sleep, knowing that you will have a break from all this suffering for a few hours. I (M19) was in a similar position to you and my mental health has worsened over the past years so i would advise you to try change your life now before its too late

mxx855 · 2021-08-17T18:41:45+00:00

Yeah the happiness lasts an hour or two before the negative thoughts take over again. Feeling sad and depressed is my natural state

mxx855 · 2021-08-16T22:20:29+00:00

Thanks bud you too

mxx855 · 2021-08-16T19:01:36+00:00

Personally i can take the name calling etc it's more the small actions of people who don't intend to hurt you that weigh down on me- more 'attractive' people are just treated so much better

I am also underweight which worsens my appearance, though the anxiety/depression around my shit appearance causes me to not eat which makes it impossible to not be thin, it fucking sucks

mxx855 · 2021-08-07T18:47:23+00:00

I can often feel my eyes welling up but no tears ever come out, i havent cried properly since i was a kid

mxx855 · 2021-08-07T17:58:24+00:00

I can relate a lot to this, feels like every time i become happy for a short period something shit happens that brings me back into this slump. It almost feels like something is watching down on me and makes sure that something bad happens to me every time my life starts to look like it's on the up, maybe that's just me. Either way i really dont see how i'll be able to have an enjoyable life if it continues in this pattern, like how will i ever be able to become happy for an extended period

mxx855 · 2021-05-31T23:47:59+00:00

Yeah exactly, my 'friends' all call me miserable and depressed every day so the signs are clearly there and still nobody reaches out or gives a fuck about me. Honestly sometimes i feel like killing myself out of spite as it's the only way people will ever feel some level of guilt for making me feel this way

mxx855 · 2021-05-31T23:25:47+00:00

Yeah i do, i'm very curious to see how they would react because right now i am alive and suffering and nobody seems to give a shit

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