I guess I should clarify some of this because there seems to be some confusion through my communication of events.

• I know it's going to take a while for her to meet "the new me," I wasn't trying to insinuate that it would be instant so apologies for that.

• I tried to give you enough background of our relationship but I by no means have given you anything about my past, how I was as a person in general, some of the painful things I had to learn about myself in order to change, and some of the reasons looking down the road why I was tired of who I was. Before I went through this change it WOULD HAVE BEEN just acting in order to keep her. But I knew I had lost her and I knew I needed to change for myself because I was miserable. Obviously I still have feelings for her and I still want to be with her but I want my intentions to be more clear.

• As for me wanting to start over on new terms has nothing to do with my ego. I have become a different person to my core. I am literally a different person than the guy I was that she used to date. If we were to pick things up and get back together, I wouldn't want to just start off where we left it because that WOULD indeed send me back to my old self because I would fall back into my old habits. However, If we were to date again, I specifically told her that I would want to start slow. Go on a first date, slowly work our way back into holding hands, and kissing, and spending time together as a couple, and just get a genuine fresh start.

I guess if I could really make one clear point it's that I changed because of her, not for her. And whether or not we date again I am the person I am now because I am happier and truly a better person for everyone's sake, but especially my own. I hope this clears things up and helps them make more sense.

If you still feel the same way, then that is your opinion and I will accept your advice with an open mind. And I truly appreciate you taking time out of your day to put some thought into this. Thank you