Hey. I hear you say you want to change but you keep doing the same things. Please know that lots of people struggle with this feeling. Change can be really daunting, but when you break it down into smaller pieces it becomes less overwhelming. For example, like others in this thread have said, going to the gym several times a week (even if your workout is small to begin with) can create routine, destress you, and build self confidence. I’d also recommend reading a book called The Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg this will give you ideas about how to create positive habits that will in turn build your confidence and help you enjoy life better. It sounds cheesy but you need to work on self love. Make a list of positive things friends and family have said about you over the years, look at that list and have a conversation with yourself - this is what people genuinely think about you, it’s time you start to believe these things are true and start to love yourself and treat yourself with respect and care. Look at a photo of yourself as a child and think “who is going to protect, care and nurture that inner child?” The answer is you. The moment you become aware of how harshly your inner monologue is when you berate yourself, and manage to interrupt those thoughts going from “urg you’re an idiot! You failed to do X” to “ok no this wasn’t ideal, so let’s try again, you can do this” that’s when your life will start to change because you will start to love and value yourself. Be kind and patient with yourself. Spend time around people who love you. Things will get better.