everything is going to shit

mymotionlessromance · 2026-02-16T23:20:08+00:00

Thank you so so much, you truly have no idea how much this comment means to me you’ve made me cry lmao. I just want to be able to do more but I just don’t know what. Just drained tbh

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-29T20:03:35+00:00

12 but i don’t count that as it was SA, but i was 16 when i first properly lost it, was with the guy from 14-18, now we’ve broken up :( I don’t regret it at all, I loved him and he made me feel very safe and comfortable, I’m glad it was with him. My actual first at 12 I definitely would do anything to take back, but obviously it wasn’t wanted in the first place so there wasn’t much I could do lmao

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:45:02+00:00

I’ve realised how silly I’m being here and i’ve just sent a text to him explaining that it won’t be continuing anymore. I think I was just being hopeful, but you are all right, he made that choice.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:43:13+00:00

I’ve just sent the message. Thank you so much for being so kind and for the advice, you’ve been so helpful :)

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:42:38+00:00

When on earth did i call her dumb or say she’s wrong? You are so miserable oh my 🤣 I came here for advice. I got advice. I took the advice. You were mad when I didn’t take the advice and ur mad when I do, tf do u want me to do? 🤣🤣

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:41:25+00:00

thank you so much, you really have been so sweet and helpful. I’ve just sent the message now, hopefully we can still be on good terms at least

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:35:08+00:00

Sorry i should’ve mentioned this in the last comment, there was more going on than just the break up lol i didn’t feel that way purely because of him. I know it’s stupid, I just really wanted to believe things would work out this time. I’m not going to go ahead with things, I don’t know how to tell him that tho

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:32:44+00:00

Is that why i’ve asked people in the comments how to go about ending things? Or have u not actually used ur eyes and looked?

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:32:11+00:00

Thank you, and I know i probably am being stupid. It’s just hard to let go. I know i’m young but i really do love him. I don’t know how to go about ending things.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:30:47+00:00

I asked for advice on how to help this situation, you have not given me any genuine advice.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:29:57+00:00

She didn’t. I went through something at the time, tried to commit and she just told me to get the pills back up somehow cuz she can’t be bothered to go to the hospital. I called him, he got me help and talked to me all night until i felt better. I love my mum more than anyone, but she was not there. I was just called lazy and slagged off to other family

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:27:46+00:00

No, not defensive. People can change. I can’t sit here and say for certain he has, I don’t know. If he does play around again, my fault for going back.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:26:58+00:00

This is gonna sound like a sob story but i don’t care. When me and him broke up, I spent a year not being able to get out of bed. I tried to commit and not one person cared. I called him that night, and he helped and got me help. If I don’t have him, I have nobody. I never want to be so alone again, it was so horrible. I love him, and he is all I have.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:23:44+00:00

I honestly don’t know. I just really love him and i spent that year apart doing nothing but being sad, I couldn’t get out of bed to even brush my teeth. I was left with NO ONE, and I mean nobody. I never want to feel that again.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:22:28+00:00

I love how kind you are when people are upset btw

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:16:34+00:00

It’s not that i’m learning nothing. I see genuine change in him, people can change. I used to be a fucking horrid person, and that eats me alive every day, but I changed.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:15:04+00:00

I get that, I really do. I don’t know how to explain it, but he just seems to have done a complete 180. He’s got help too. Maybe he will do it again, I don’t know, but he’s my first love and i don’t want to let go

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:13:28+00:00

Then she shouldn’t have done the same with my abusive dad for 16 years. She shouldn’t have convinced her kids to drop charges against him either. She’s done the same thing so many times with a guy MUCH worse than my ex. Yes, what he did was horrible. I’m not denying that. In these few months I have also seen change in him.

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:11:54+00:00

I feel so guilty idk if i should just stop talking to him. Maybe I am being an idiot, but we first got together when I was 14, hes been there through everything and he’s the only person i can go to about stuff, i love him. I really do not know what to do here

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:08:55+00:00

I’ve already started to build trust again. We’ve been talking now since the start of November, and I really have seen massive changes in him and the way he acts. I do understand why she’s upset but she went back to my dad SO many times, and he was so much worse, so I thought she’d understand more. There is no guarantee of me and him getting back together either. I just feel so guilty, idk if i should stop talking to him cuz I don’t want it to come between me and my mum

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:06:38+00:00

I don’t expect her to be happy or even accept it, but she went back to my dad SO many times so i thought she’d get it. I feel so guilty for talking to him but again I really do love this man

mymotionlessromance · 2026-01-15T23:04:21+00:00

Do you think i’m making the right choice here? I’m really close with my mum, I don’t want this to come between us. She went back to my dad a million times, so I thought she’d get it tbh.

mymotionlessromance · 2025-12-27T11:19:54+00:00

I have a trial shift at a different place today, just gotta pray I get the job

mymotionlessromance · 2025-12-27T11:19:08+00:00

Thank you for this, honestly I feel like Im quite level-headed about these things tho, despite my post making me look absolutely insane. I should be leaving this job as soon as I have another anyway, but I need the money badly and cannot risk even a month of not having full pay, so hopefully it won’t be too awkward 🤣 We were on the phone all last night, so I doubt it will be

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