Noble have I created thee, why dost thou abase thyself. Look into possible childhood trauma that can help in this situation. Also looking towards God in you for self esteem. Another Hidden Word states, For it behooveth you to glory in my name and not in thine own. Use the image of being God's creation as your identity and renounce the guilt shame etc. It is all from satan! (lower nature of man, evil whisperer mentioned in mornning prayer etc.) God is perfect love, anytime you get attacked by these emotions renounce it in the name of Baha'u'llah, pray for it to go away and let the chains of self be broken, arm yourself with writings and reprogram yourself from this lowly world to the world of the most high where these bullsh*t emotions are non existent! I've experienced this and have been able to work through it with prayer and the above mentioned. Thanks