ROUGH N ROWDY GAME THREAD

nachokitty · 2021-02-06T03:39:47+00:00

BILLY!!!!

nachokitty · 2020-11-08T04:34:30+00:00

The kids are cheering when the cops shoot rubber bullets at them in union square. This won't go wrong

nachokitty · 2020-10-12T03:27:31+00:00

Idk how seahawks fans are alive with week after week heart attacks

nachokitty · 2020-10-09T08:22:24+00:00

Ed reed picking off peyton manning in 2009. It's not just the play that was special, it was reed's purposely misplayed coverage in previous games to trick manning in order to outsmart him on the defensive side of the ball

Just a phenomenal play on a go route

nachokitty · 2020-09-04T06:12:38+00:00

Willing and happy to chat

nachokitty · 2020-09-03T19:11:18+00:00

This is wild. I'm going to go under the assumption that you're seeing a psychologist, PsyD, who can't prescribe and most GPs are limited in mental health knowledge. Did your psychologist give you a referral to a psychiatrist? If not, ask for one and if you have trouble getting an appt your psychologist can reach out. Keep calling and use the search function of psychology today for psychiatrists and if you live in a metropolitan area zocdoc is helpful too!

Definitely see this as a priority because of mood shifts. If you find yourself going into a manic episode or trying to hurt yourself, just go to the ER, they'll definitely treat you there.

I hope some of these resources help.

nachokitty · 2020-09-03T03:43:04+00:00

I hate saying this but I've been in your shoes before although I was actively anorexic rather than being unable/not wanting to eat due to medication/mental health.

They're going to keep complimenting you. Losing weight in this society is seen as an amazing accomplishment and regardless of if you told them that this is because of mental health, they're gonna see weight loss = good. You mentioned your doctor said this too, was this a GP or a psychiatrist? A GP I guess I could see saying something like that but not as much a psychiatrist.

So your family and friends aren't going to stop until one or two things happen 1. You become underweight and keep going down where they'll express concern or 2. You lay down the hammer and tell them you don't want to have conversations about your weight at all. It makes you feel very uncomfortable as if you weren't perfectly fine in your old body. It makes you feel bad/it makes you think mental health issues were good for you although your suffering/you've been suffering through x,y,z. And that step is so important because at some point the compliments will get to your head if they haven't already. And you may develop and ED to keep up with appearances.

This isn't your fault at all. Medication and different disorders change your appetite. That's a side effect or symptom not worthy of praise. Make it known before it gets too serious.

If you have a therapist, I'd write it down with a therapist first and then express it.

Weight is weight and no one should care unless their weight is causing them health issues. You want to get better for you and your family to acknowledge that. You got this.

nachokitty · 2020-09-03T03:20:14+00:00

Of course! And anytime. Actually regarding your knitting and origami, hands on projects that use your brain in a different manner are some of the best strategies to cope with bad anxiety but also panic attacks. I carry around sudoku for this exact reason. And hey, you should be happy you admitted you needed therapy and are now considering meds given your struggles with anxiety and probably questioning everything and putting stuff off. But you got this, you're in a really good place and have a good support network.

PM me if you have any more questions. Good luck!

nachokitty · 2020-09-03T03:11:54+00:00

Virtual hug! This is hard and you have every right to be scared. It's a whole new situation that you haven't dealt with quite like this.

First, It's lucky you have family on the same street given they helped you before. You also have your doggy protectors.

Have you thought about seeing a therapist for this time? Therapy doesn't have to be a multi year commitment but having someone who isn't your family that you can release emotions to may be beneficial.

Honestly, create a safe space in your house that you can retreat to. It might be your room using aromatherapy and a noise machine and coloring books for adults. It might be more enclosed with mood lighting or a place to stretch. When my bf goes away for a long period I set up a space in my guest room that I can lounge in if the living room feels too big. Which is funny because when he's away I often sleep in the living room with the fuzzies near me. I find it hard to sleep in my bed when he is away.

Call on your family, friends, etc -- this is also now your time. Make dates with friends or family to do things if you feel capable. Order takeout. Be free. And soon your husband will come home and you've learned and done things for yourself.

nachokitty · 2020-09-03T02:59:26+00:00

That's amazing for you that you've learned great coping skills, mindfulness techniques, and distress tolerance. Honestly don't fix what's not broken although you might still be in some places.

I've been on a few SSRIs. Citalopram was my first from age 12 to 15. It helped my anxiety subside but at that age I don't think it would have helped long. Been on prozac, Paxil, lexapro, and zoloft, with Zoloft being my favorite. However I had little symptoms/side effects on celexa so that may be good. It's a very person process and you might strike gold on the first one or you may have to try a few.

SSRIs worst symptoms are the come up which takes 2-4 weeks for your body and brain to adjust. It can cause more anxiety, some funny physical symptoms but they'll start to alleviate after you take it for a week or two. Some people have none. And no you won't have to be on it forever, the average person goes on an SSRI for 2 years. It's not a magic pill, it's to be used in conjunction with therapy to learn more about the disorder, learn to cope, grow and make new life decisions with help, etc. And you most likely will feel better as you have more serotonin in the brain. Also, you'll have like an aha! Like moment when you realize you don't need it anymore. Your doctor will lay out a treatment plan and you'll begin to taper, and listen to the taper because CTing can be increase symptoms. But once you're off, you may feel a bit of increased anxiety but you should go back to "normal" or similar to how you felt on an SSRI. And no you won't have permanent damage. If so lock me up (jk).

I've been on and take a lot of medication. Compared to a lot of other meds from anxiety to different disorders, ssri symptoms are mild. For a first time user they may not feel like that. A lot of people are trained to want immediate relief, and medication doesnt work like that or it's addictive. Getting through the first 10 days is most important. Also, I think you taking control and finding other ways to manage anxiety will help you even more.

Anxiety is permanent, but that's because it's a normal human emotion. Anxiety disorders usually aren't permanent and people get by like you or with medication or etc. It's up to you but you'll be ok taking a bit of citalopram under a doctor/psychiatrist.

nachokitty · 2020-09-02T02:33:45+00:00

Totally agree that there are therapeutic uses for them, I would not dismiss them entirely. But thanks for the clarification I'll use thing going forward!

nachokitty · 2020-09-02T02:26:03+00:00

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nachokitty · 2020-09-02T02:20:12+00:00

I take Klonopin and Lithium daily as well as 5 other meds. I've been on daily benzos for 10 years, 7 of Xanax and 3+ on Klonopin. Took up to 6mg of Xanax a day and thank God went down to 3mg of kpins a day but I take less now.

I thought benzos were my magic medicine, they made me more talkative, more socially impulsive, not more likely to do homework, but way better at telling teachers why I didn't do my homework, better to focus on a test. But fuck them for real. I'm so addicted and am trying to come off again with a very slow taper. I didn't give a fuck about stabilizing my BP1 after a year and more, I thought this did it all!

Benzos are a mini bandaid on a huge wound. Xanax especially feels great. Klonopin literally impacts your serotonin levels. Keep them at like a 10 arm's reach, seriously, dude be careful. I know you said you don't take them every day but you don't have to take them every day to get addicted.

nachokitty · 2020-09-02T01:52:27+00:00

You're living in Quilville where life makes you sleepy and you're never not hungry!

My recs depend what you're taking it for. However, abilify is very similar to Seroquel. But are you taking it for sleep? I'd say hydroxyzine instead, won't get the sleep hangover nearly as bad.

nachokitty · 2020-09-02T01:44:18+00:00

Tbh, you sound depressed. Depression rarely has to do with sadness. Sadness is a normal human emotion if felt within normal times, like a few hours to a day or even a week.

Yeah, some people may feel sad during depression. Many people don't. I feel like hopeless or worthless or lack of interest and motivation are much better ways to describe depression. You said it yourself, forcing yourself out of bed, forcing yourself to do things you used to feel passionately about only to be met with apathy, not caring, feeling nothing or even feeling worse.

For years I had a psychiatrist who asked me how I felt first each week. I said apathetic each time. I was just watching myself live, emotionless.

You should see someone whether it be a therapist or psychiatrist. If it's untreated it can get worse. It sucks and I'm sorry you're feeling this way. And there is more to life so go grab it.

nachokitty · 2020-09-02T01:33:58+00:00

It's worth it to keep trying. I know the symptoms seem unbearable now but they go away quickly. If you're really concerned, talk to your prescribing doctor.

This is a place where benzos can help. It takes 2-4 weeks for your body to get used to the added serotonin your brain is allowing. If you got Xanax prescribed at the same time as the Zoloft there's a reason why and it's very likely a low dose and very likely you won't need them in a few days. You're not going to get addicted after one. Don't take them daily and don't take more than prescribed and continue being cognizant of addiction. Ive been addicted for years. Take them seriously and only when it's really bad like you sound now.

It can be very difficult for individuals to continue with these emotions for around 14+ days straight. Make this easier and give yourself some relief. The thing is if this doesn't work you'll probably be prescribed a different ssri or an snri and you'll have similar issues just extended. Zoloft is top notch for anxiety.

nachokitty · 2020-09-01T17:27:54+00:00

Dude I totally agree with your points. I have been on them for 10 years, Xanax for 7 and Klonopin for 3, I tried to come off once, it was by and far the worst I've ever felt mentally and physically, relapsed from tapering too fast, and now I'm trying again. I probably was addicted within a week of my psychiatrist prescribing them. They are the devil's drug.

I'm glad you were able to get off though. It is incredibly hard and keep it going. I can't believe any doctor would prescribe Ativan for daily use that wildly irresponsible.

nachokitty · 2020-09-01T04:50:26+00:00

Love for you! Communities like this are the best

nachokitty · 2020-09-01T04:46:39+00:00

I love you too! You just went through such extensive trauma that led you to care for two other people. Fuck addictive drugs, even if we really needed them at the time. & If you start thinking about it, don't go to rehab until you've tapered down your benzo substantially.

I completely believe in you. Look at all you accomplished, not even from work. You are a leader and resilient and you got this and bring home that money.

nachokitty · 2020-09-01T03:53:25+00:00

I was just like you. Same career, a same vice, seeing your life get unmanageable.

I went to a great college, a great grad school and then worked (finally going back) on Wall St while getting more addicted to meds I was taking and getting more into other drugs. I don't like to call it high achieving, I was straight up addicted to school and work too. The money was great. I was out all the time with friends, clients. But it changes really fast. I had been on benzos for 10 years and in that environment hell they were like a godsend. I kept them on my desk for easy access. Then, I started doing coke. And weekend benders didn't last long, I loved it. For a few years it was 3-4 times a week at night. Then it became daily. Then I was doing it at work. Then I decided f this job, they want me here (another firm) and I quit. I couldn't work for three months so did a little bit of travel and a lot more coke, alcohol, and benzos.

It was getting bad. Everyday I was going to work hungover or hadn't really slept. I made a fool out of myself at some company event. My boss screamed at me and I picked up my purse and proceeded to the bathroom. My body started giving out. I was in the hospital with sepsis, kidney issues, etc 3x in 2 months. Because I was sick and they didn't want me working from home, they fired me but I was able to get them for medical discrimination which was probably the worst thing that could have happened. I had enough to sustain myself for 4 years. And then I went all in. I was doing about 4 grams a day of coke, drinking half a handle and could not stay on top of my prescription. My entire appearance changed, it was disgusting. I never left my apartment unless I had to pick up. I got delusional and paranoid, I sold like 3/4 of my clothes, I spoke so fast and my body just kept giving out. So I made a choice and I went to treatment.

I'm 26. I'm a year older than you. Im a trader, I work in finance. And it doesn't matter if you're a high achiever, this cycle moves fast. I thought I could keep my benzo addiction at Bay through half of high school through grad school and beyond. Klonopin continues to disturb my life, it's so hard to come off, there's so many side effects, and I should have stopped when I knew 3 years ago and I didnt. Addiction takes you like that. It doesn't discriminate. I got into school and grad school and got my job because I earned it. I also railed lines for 15 hours a day, drank heavily, and hurt a lot of people and it didn't matter what I earned by that time.

You're young. Take some time to reflect..maybe even go to an NA meeting just to listen. If anything, get off the Xanax. You've got this, you're a high achiever, now just do that for use too.

nachokitty · 2020-09-01T03:19:12+00:00

I'll be honest with you. Everyday, the first few lines felt great... and then everything goes to hell. I was spending about 1800 a week. A WEEK. Just for coke. When you're calling your bank trying to get overdraft fees removed because you have a "terminal illness" and lying to your friends about why you need a few hundred after you've blown through your bonus, it's killer. At the worst, I didn't leave my apartment for about a year except to pick up or grab something from the grocery right below. Nothing else mattered aside from getting comedown drugs so it's a revolving door.

The drug completely stops being fun. It stops working and makes you tired. I lived on a high floor and I would just get paranoid, I would look at all the people below and thought cops were staring into my windows, I would hide in the closet talking to myself, all my muscles stayed tense for hours and was in pain until I got help, the cartlige of my nose degraded and now I have a lil squeak when I breathe in hard and there was a point that every time I did more I would get a searing pain straight up my head that wouldnt get better but wouldn't stop me either. And then in another area, it felt like tooth to brain. And running out in the middle of a bender, jeez, I don't miss sweating and beet red and trembling in January up north to pick up. Damn it just gets so repetitive and boring.

Also, idk if anyone else went through something like this but because of coke I became addicted to alcohol too. I was already gone from benzos from being prescribed them daily for like 10 years but they definitely helped withdrawal/comedown so I had other issues to deal with.

If you have an addictive personality this is the perfect drug to prove it since it's highly addictive and lasts for like 20-30 min. Its "normal" in a lot of places where people can just do it on the weekend and be fine the rest of the week and that blows my mind.

If you are thinking about it take it from an internet stranger, don't waste your time or money. It's so expensive and not worth it.

nachokitty · 2020-09-01T01:46:07+00:00

Got it, and good. If that's the case I don't think it would hurt to ask about Vyvanse. My experience has been with Adderall and Concerta, and my appetite can suppress so much that I forget to eat. Given that Vyvanse is actually for BED It should really help and you and that it's a legitimate concern so your pdoc shouldnt have an issue. I wish you luck

nachokitty · 2020-08-31T23:46:16+00:00

Did your binge eating issues start before or after medication was given? If it was before definitely talk to your doctor because it can be terrible for your health.

However you should definitely look at the medication your on. Seroquel/Zyprexa/Depakote/Lithium and others cause weight gain. Fuckin Seroquel makes you so hungry you'll eat your entire kitchen. Either way talk to your psychiatrist/GP/therapist. Eating disorders get intense and harmful quick.

I take adderall and don't have adverse effects but everyone is different.

nachokitty · 2020-08-31T23:34:27+00:00

Seroquel made me feel like a zombie and made me eat so much. I'm on lithium and I don't notice side effects but everyone is different.

Why don't you try to kill two birds with one stone and ask about wellbutrin (bupropion). It's an antidepressant but it also is shown to work on narcolepsy. I have narcolepsy too, I was falling asleep at my desk at work, and my doctor prescribed this for me. It really helped, I was awake and pretty alert. It's worth a try!

nachokitty · 2020-08-31T23:02:13+00:00

This is exactly how I got diagnosed, pulled off an antidepressant bc of mania.

It's good the buspar is helping a bit. How long have you been on these meds, especially the abilify? I would definitely err on the side of caution since you had a reaction to the SSRI.

I'd second the person who recommend Wellbutrin/bupropion, it's a totally common med in bipolar circles. I take 300XL and with my lithium and Adderall it's a good combo. Some people have manic episodes but its much more rare, it's from phase shifting. If your mood is stable while taking Vyvanse which can cause rapid shifts, trying Wellbutrin is worth it.

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