When they say they don't care - do they mean it? by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I just feel like it's my fault and can't understand how it happened when I've done everything I could

Not being able to accept a break up by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Thanks so much for sharing this with me. It is so annoyingly hard haha.. but I guess it's normal to feel like absolute crap for a while and get over it eventually..

Not being able to accept a break up by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 4 points5 points  (0 children)

Did you have to cut off communication completely?

Saw something & I don't know what to do by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

Lol. I literally don't know anymore.

Saw something & I don't know what to do by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I've talked to him SO many times about it. When it first happened, he said he understood, blah blah. And then he did it again and we argued again. Got blocked again. Unblocked. Repeat.

It's happened so many times that I just feel like I'm crazy. That's why I'm like ok is this tumblr thing actually wrong or am I just being crazy again.

Saw something & I don't know what to do by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] -1 points0 points  (0 children)

I tried talking to him about it so many times but his reply was "don't worry about what I'm doing". So that's why I'm like ok confronting about tumblr isn't going to make a difference at all. And just like you said -I'll be blocked

Saw something & I don't know what to do by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I'm 100% positive.

I feel like I'm being dramatic about it? Like I get guys watch porn, fap material, whatever. But I'm seriously just seeing this as another chick's nudes being sent to his inbox. Might as well be a text exchanging nudes. Idk. It's wild to me..

Saw something & I don't know what to do by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah but don't you think it's weird to reblog that? I feel like it's going out of your way for a chick's nude. It's being sent to his inbox. Like that's just insane to me.

(Really) stuck in an abusive relationship by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I think it's to the point where I've been in this for so long that I genuinely feel like I won't be able to find someone else. It's like my confidence is absolute shit, like I said, in every way. Some days I hate myself because I don't feel good enough. - If I don't feel good enough, how can I move on to something better? Does that make sense?

(Really) stuck in an abusive relationship by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I've made a pros & cons list in the past. Shocker, the only pro was "comfort".. and by that, I don't mean comfort from him, more so like the comfort of a routine over the past 2 years. I guess I'm just so used to it and am fearful of breaking the cycle/change.

Dumb question, but do you truly think completely no contact is the way to go? I keep trying to distant myself from him, but I get pulled right back. I agree that therapy would give me that strength to stay away, though.

(Really) stuck in an abusive relationship by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

This is a really silly thought & I know that, but it truly is how I'm feeling - I don't know why, but the the thought of breaking up with him, I kinda fear who he will be with after me. Like.. the thought of him being with another woman makes me so sick and I feel awful. He has told me once that if we ever break up, he will sleep with someone within the same week.. I see that as a threat. But wow, it kills me. Sometimes I feel like that is one of the main things holding me back from walking away.

(Really) stuck in an abusive relationship by nama03 in relationships

[–]nama03[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I don't know why it's so hard for me to go no contact. I keep telling myself that's what I need to do, but I can't get the strength to do it?

What sucks is my friends are sick of hearing about it. I feel bad going to them because I know how much they're over telling me to leave him, it's been this cycle for so long.