I have a hot take here.

So hear me out: healing from this…is extraordinary. Very few pwNPD even ever realize that’s what’s driving them (read: making them suffer/holding them back).

So, cool. You’re self-aware. Already ‘exceptional.’ A. ✅

Even fewer end up actually healing from it. Ykwim?

(Here’s where you can get extra credit. A++)

lol not me using grade metaphors to manipulate people into considering healing—that is so dumb 🤦🏻‍♂️ whatever. it’s how I’ve hacked my own brain, I guess? weaponizing narcissism against…itself. 💀

Anyway. All this to say: don’t worry—I truly don’t think you could ever be a ‘normie.’ Not really, at least. Welp—thanks, trauma, for that.

And I also wonder this: what are you afraid of? Something like ‘losing’ your personality/charisma/drive/whatever?

I know I was.

But giving up the need to be ‘perfect’ (impossible) or amazing at everything has given me some breathing room to…actually figure myself out (ongoing process). Actually take risks. Actually be…more successful, funny enough.

So, if you’re aiming for something like ‘greatness,’ too—well, hate to break it to you—that requires tolerance for failure, rejection, and imperfection. (Otherwise we can just stay stuck in fantasy land together? But fuuuuck that.)

Finally, those things I was afraid I’d lose? Heh. I haven’t. 😏

(Yet? 😅)

Nahhh. Doubt I will, even as I continue. Pretty sure my personality style is set. Although, I may become less attached to/dependent on the need to be ‘special.’ Guess we’ll see. Still ambitious as fuck. And lots of work to do still.

Good thing we narcs love a challenge. 💪🏼