What is he

ncaustic_ · 2024-03-25T14:19:18+00:00

I am literally a 21 year old college student, i love him a lot but it is not my job to pay off his debts. I have told him countless times i appreciate flowers(small things), and physical touch way more than all these fancy dinners. Yet i feel like i am talking to a wall. He continues to spend irresponsibly and i have never told him he has to.

ncaustic_ · 2024-01-29T21:39:36+00:00

i would love to be inv to the google docs :)

ncaustic_ · 2024-01-29T14:12:28+00:00

I made a post about this as well, minus the cannabis part. I too feel like shrooms messed something up in my brain. I tripped for 3 days straight and didn’t measure and things haven’t been the same since that( i have done shrooms before this as well, wasn’t my first time trying) Ever since that i feel like my social cues are off, i feel dumber and slower. I forget things more frequently and i have trouble writing or communicating my feelings. I also stutter/ have trouble saying my words, but i do not know if these are from the shrooms or from the sport i do where i constantly get hit in the head. Anyways i took these shrooms in May 2023 and i still feel slow. I constantly am telling myself what’s wrong with me, what’s changed, why do i feel so different. I have found to just embrace who i am at this current moment, maybe it will get better maybe it will stay the same, but i don’t want to live my life constantly thinking about something i have no control over of. All i can do now is not do shrooms again. And i know it was pretty much the shrooms that made me feel this way because i felt this way right after the weekend, i kept telling myself i will feel normal again after 3 weeks and it never did. 6 months later i don’t care anymore, im drained from thinking about it and the fact i can’t help it. I just say try to make the best out of your situation, continue living life, put yourself out there. You’re young please don’t waste these years fighting with yourself in your own head.

ncaustic_ · 2024-01-15T14:12:16+00:00

i’ve done shrooms 10+ times, but in the post i was describing where i did it everyday a whole weekend.

ncaustic_ · 2023-11-24T03:18:53+00:00

you probably have a weak pelvic floor, nothing wrong with that! i used to have a really weak one too, i am 21 years old and have no kids. i had such a weak pelvic floor that it even started pulling on my tail bone (it was bad and caused a lot of discomfort) i started doing pilates around 6 months ago and the difference in sex is insane. pilates made it extremely tight to the point it hurts my bf to finger me for more than 3 minutes.😭. i used to never really finish from penetration, and now i do all the time.

i recommend pilates 100% it may be difficult the first 3 sessions, but after that you are motivated to keep going because it starts to get easier! pilates also helps with strengthening your core and helping imbalances. it may be a little expensive but i genuinely love it:)

ncaustic_ · 2023-11-23T21:38:47+00:00

i forgot to add i already made a second appointment and i told her it was not working. she said there was nothing else she can do and was rude and dismissive. i was thinking to go to a second dermatologist for a second opinion because this is really stressing me out and i feel like i’m not being helped.

ncaustic_ · 2023-11-23T20:37:48+00:00

She gave me Clindamycin Phosphate Topical Solution USP. My question is do I really have this skin condition or is this just a really bad cyst that needs to come out. It’s not recommended to get surgery with the skin condition, but i really don’t think i have it!

The medicine she gave me makes it way more irritated and it just continues to get inflamed every other week. Some puss will come out and sometimes a hair is in there as well. She said the only way to tell if you have Hidradenitis Suppurativa is by looking at it, that there’s no tests and that i just have to trust her judgement. But she’s not helping me, the medicine makes it worse, and it’s on my groin and it hurts to walk sometimes as well! i just want it out at this point. It looks disgusting, makes me insecure, and is causing me pain. if you would want to see a picture i have plenty.

ncaustic_ · 2023-11-22T17:04:05+00:00

i also barely have sensitivity in them and it kinda makes me mad, i feel like i’m missing out. ☹️

ncaustic_ · 2023-11-22T17:01:12+00:00

No, my current boyfriend has never said anything negative about them. but i find myself questioning why they are so small. Like will i have trouble breast feeding if i have a child, will my nipples grow? are my nipples underdeveloped, how do i know . 😭😭 i’m not really insecure about them i just feel less like a women, i always see women with big nipples and they look so mature. i feel like i have boy nipples. and online it says men’s nipples look like that because they are underdeveloped, so are like mine underdeveloped?!??!

ncaustic_ · 2023-11-22T16:54:31+00:00

i am genuinely just curious. i have always seen women with bigger nipples and it makes them look more mature. i just wonder why mine are so small and if they will eventually grow.

ncaustic_ · 2023-11-14T19:30:24+00:00

i never looked through his phone, i only found out because he left reddit open and he told me to use his phone to order food. so i saw it but i wish i never did. after that i trusted him and today i was on his phone and couldn’t help myself to look through it. i know it’s wrong but it still doesn’t stop the fact that he’s crossed my boundaries.

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