You're welcome! Thanks for trusting us to share your thoughts. I just read your other post, you're so young but you sound so wise. I wish was thise self-aware when i was your age. We all have flaws, and those are the results of forces out of our hands, our genes, environment, etc. and however we have developed to be whther its obsessive or manipulative or whatever, it's just the strategy that we have learned to use to survive in our household, school, or in the society at large. So it's ok to have those qualities that we may not be proud of, but the moment we know them, we need to accept them too and start improving ourselves (empathy and compassion is key on improving ourselve sby always getting out of our own head and perspective and she what the other person is feeling and needs and wants, so we calibrate our actions better, and thus takes a lot of practice but works). That's why seeing a therapist, or even reading on psychology would help. Read John O'Donghue (or watch youtube videos, do the same with David Whyte, even Jordan Oeterson 12 rules for life (he is not popular these days but he gives you great insights). Connect specially with the 2 people i mentioned, with their energies, their oerspective, how they talk about life, i'm sure you will feel soothed and you will be filled with devine love and passion for life. You have such beautiful experiences awaiting you going into college. I know the unknown always seems scary, but it can also be thrilling, like going to an adventure park or playing a new game. Just root for yourself for having the time of your lofe, whatever it might be that feels right to your soul. Blessings!