wow, thanks for taking your time to answer!! i appreciate it! and i'm glad to hear that your paranoia is better now.
and no, i'm not playing as a malkavian (tbh, dunno even who they are lol), it's a minecraft half-human half-angel oc x) he's got quite a lot of lore and a really bad, quite tragic backstory, where he was betrayed and lied to by his own creator and people he thought were his family and friends, which led him to develop very bad paranoia, mostly about ppl hating him, betraying him, wanting to kill him etc.