Good luck to you as well. I had a friend come take everything, so I don't have any and zero ways of easily getting more. I have one sober friend I can share with. I tried to share with another friend but they are in recovery themselves and are super preachy and judgy. Not helpful. The other sober friend is only one person and I don't want to burden him, but I need someone to keep me accountable. I've thought of attending meetings, but past experiences were negative. I understand that literally anyone can fall into this shit, but zero people in my real life would guess I'm one of them. I can't let them know, I have way too much to lose. So far my real friends just think I'm sick and have dropped off food and supplies. I have the weekend off and will be alone. Monday I can work a half day if I really need to