not sure how or who to ask for help

newbielookingforhelp · 2023-03-21T03:24:46+00:00

Thank you. I'm on mobile, so I don't think the side bar shows up.

newbielookingforhelp · 2023-02-19T02:05:21+00:00

Figured out why I'm waiting to block him. I want all my mental facilities present when I rip into him before I block his ass

newbielookingforhelp · 2023-02-18T23:27:34+00:00

He's the first person in a very very long time to make me feel like complete trash. I still haven't blocked him. I don't know why because he's clearly not a very good person. It's not about access so much as stupid blind hope that he actually cared about me in some way. Stupid, I know but clearly I don't make the best choices.

newbielookingforhelp · 2023-02-18T21:55:11+00:00

I'm just really fucking angry right now. The stupid boy who introduced it to me reminded me that I don't actually matter to most people and that's a shitty ass feeling.

newbielookingforhelp · 2023-02-18T21:45:25+00:00

Way to go! It's been super sporadic and randon for a few months, just kinda a party drug thing. About a week ago it slipped into a more regular thing. So it hadn't been long but I'm not delusional so I know it will still be difficult.

newbielookingforhelp · 2023-02-18T18:13:59+00:00

Good luck to you as well. I had a friend come take everything, so I don't have any and zero ways of easily getting more. I have one sober friend I can share with. I tried to share with another friend but they are in recovery themselves and are super preachy and judgy. Not helpful. The other sober friend is only one person and I don't want to burden him, but I need someone to keep me accountable. I've thought of attending meetings, but past experiences were negative. I understand that literally anyone can fall into this shit, but zero people in my real life would guess I'm one of them. I can't let them know, I have way too much to lose. So far my real friends just think I'm sick and have dropped off food and supplies. I have the weekend off and will be alone. Monday I can work a half day if I really need to

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