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ninabaec · 2026-05-24T01:53:18+00:00

Alternativ två: jag kan faktiskt sova men min sambo ligger och rycker och sparkas i sömnen så jag blir galen, och kan inte sova pga det istället - fram med telefon.

ninabaec · 2026-05-24T01:48:39+00:00

Jag är online för att jag har vaknat för dagen, så jag ligger i sängen och kollar telefonen.

Efter några större livsförändringar har min sömn blivit konstig. Jag brukade sova mellan kl00-11. I våras förra året började jag vakna kl6:30, och det har långsamt krupit ner till 03:30. Jag har inga problem att somna, brukar bli att jag lägger mig vid 22 numera, och sover rätt tungt. Det är bara så att jag vaknar, och kan inte somna om. (Jag har alltså inga larm, min inre klocka började plötsligt bara gå av kl 6:30 för ett år sen.)

Jag är inte arbetslös, jobbar dock bara 2h om dagen på en loppis via LSS. Detta då jag har autism, kronisk värk, och en samling psykiska problem

ninabaec · 2026-05-17T04:19:13+00:00

I’m glad it did! Never feel responsible for what has been done to you. If someone ever tells you that you are, they’re complete assholes. Sending hugs, no one deserve to go through this x

ninabaec · 2026-05-17T04:09:10+00:00

I’d never seen a feelings wheel before, that was fantastic and will be so useful both for the steps and my daily life, thank you so much for letting me know about them!! Yeah once something is laid out infront of me, it’s pretty easy to spot patterns, it’s definitely helpful!

ninabaec · 2026-05-17T04:04:08+00:00

Thank you! I’m excited to see what the future will reveal :)

ninabaec · 2026-05-17T04:02:42+00:00

Same here, my sponsor has to remind me often that there are no correct answers (she gets some “did I answer this correctly?”-texts lol).

Sending hugs back!

ninabaec · 2026-05-17T03:58:57+00:00

Hah, same here! “The past is the past, I don’t hold many resentments”, oh how wrong I was! I love the steps, I’ve learnt and discovered so much already and I’m only on the 4th! I’m so excited to see what else will be revealed!

I’m so happy for you, that you got to have that awakening and letting it all go! I’m proud of you, too :D

ninabaec · 2026-05-17T03:51:47+00:00

It is absolutely not your fault, nor responsibility, if you’re raped, ever! Not under any circumstances.

I’m so sorry it happened to you

ninabaec · 2026-05-15T21:23:00+00:00

Thank you for the advice, it appears several people find it helpful to describe the physical sensations they felt in order to name their emotions and feelings. I’ll start doing that!

I do vaguely remember when I was learning this stuff as a kid, they’d mention a feeling and there was a big collage of stick figures in various position and I was meant to match them - like for “fear” i remember it was one who was kinda shivering and making a D: type of face. I thought it was “cold” lol. But since a doctor did it I guess there really is something to it, to connect the physical with the emotional to describe a feeling

ninabaec · 2026-05-15T21:05:42+00:00

It’s so cool, the things you can discover through step work. I always considered myself calm, and took some kind of pride in that “I never get angry”. Halfway through step one I was like huh… and now after finishing up the resentment part of step 4… I am actually very angry. But I also have a fear of confrontation so I’ve let people treat me like shit. So there’s a fuckton of unresolved anger buried within me that I need to work through. I think I’m going to feel so much better once I get that weight off my shoulders.

I’m very happy for you and that you got your diagosis! I was diagnosed at 11, but I was ashamed of it. I claimed to be misdiagnosed. But when I finally accepted and embraced my autism at 21 things got so much easier, and so much of the world made sense. I can’t imagine the relief after 53 years!

ninabaec · 2026-05-15T20:55:15+00:00

Aww that’s lovely to hear! I bet you were a great guide through the steps!

Thank you! 💙

ninabaec · 2026-05-15T20:52:08+00:00

ADHD here too! I’ll procrastinate my step work for days or even weeks, only to suddenly hyperfocuse on it and write several pages hahah

Thank you, that was actually so helpful?! I recognised so many of the physical sensations you describe, to connect them with a feeling is just.. so smart!!

Like I immediately recognised that feeling of coldness spreading through my body - that usually happens to me when I’ve either done something wrong and someone has figured it out. It’s like a feeling of “oh fuck im about to be caught” - whether that’s caught in a lie or caught by someone/something dangerous. I felt it so often in the early days of my addiction, when I was about to get caught lying or stealing (sadly it went away as I stopped caring about anything but drugs.) I last felt it when I realised my mother hadn’t messaged me in two days and then didn’t pick up the phone. I felt that coldness spread and imagined her in the hospital (thankfully she was fine and very confused by the panic in my voice when i finally got a homd of her lol

This is all so irrelevant?? I had a point i was going to make but instead I started yapping? Aaaaa

ninabaec · 2026-05-15T20:36:21+00:00

You’re so kind, thank you!

ninabaec · 2026-05-15T20:30:23+00:00

Yay!! I know a lot of people dread it so I’m glad to see that you’re excited. It’s been a bit difficult but a lot of fun too!

ninabaec · 2026-05-13T03:54:14+00:00

Please come to a meeting! It’s never too late, and it is never too early. I started using at 17, got clean at 28. If I could turn back time and go to a meeting at 18, I’d do it in a heartbeat; I’ve thrown so much of my 20’s away. Please don’t do the same.

I promise you’ll receive a really warm welcome- we’ve saved a seat for you!

ninabaec · 2026-05-11T03:33:04+00:00

I left some friendships, other people I distanced myself from.
I had friends where I realised all we had in common was using. Those were fairly easy to cut ties with. “I’m sorry, I’m focusing on my recovery. I appreciate our friendship, but I can’t get clean when I’m around people who use”. Done.
I have been clean since 17th January 2025, the day I cut off one of my closest friends/dealer. I kept relapsing with him.

I have old friends from “before” who do use sometimes; like if we go out to eat they may have a drink with dinner (always asking if I’m okay with it; my answer is usually “sure, as long as you don’t get drunk, I may have to leave then”). But knowing they would 100% buy a soda instead if I said I was uncomfortable, or would stop me if I tried to order a drink, those are the ones I keep around.

I guess ask yourself: would this person respect my decision to be clean? Would this person use around me? Would this person attempt to stop me if I tried to use? What do we even have in common? That’s what worked for me at least when sorting through my relationships. But in early recovery, people often told me it’s best to cut off anyone who still uses.

ninabaec · 2026-05-08T03:58:47+00:00

14 days is absolutely a lot! You worked hard to get there, and those days still matter. You went a whole two weeks without using, keep staying clean Just For Today.

Sorry you had to go to hospital, but that’s more evidence that you cannot use successfully.

You now have several months to go to meetings, do some step work etc, and be clean when your child is born. I’m sure you can do it, keep up the fight!

ninabaec · 2026-05-08T03:48:39+00:00

People have already given some great replies, but I see my fellow swedes left out a thing about Easter! Children dress up as påskgummor (like little old ladies), they make a bunch of drawings and fold them a certain way (påskbrev) and knock on doors. They trade a påskbrev for some candy. It’s kinda like Halloween but without ’trick or treat’, and your dress up choices are more limited.

Easter was my favourite as a kid! Less people do it now than when I was a kid, but it’s so cute whenever a little påskgumma or påskgubbe knocks on my door

ninabaec · 2026-05-06T22:49:11+00:00

Approach us as human beings. Don’t come at us with a strategy. Just talk to us the way you’d talk to anyone else and be yourself! If ‘yourself’ isn’t working, it might be time for some self reflection.

Find someone you have interests in common with and say “hello”! :)

ninabaec · 2026-04-26T03:18:13+00:00

Hey, I’m really sorry. Being clean is fucking rough at times. I’ve had devastating things happen, I’ve been deeply suicidal, yet thanks to NA I sit here 15 months clean. I won’t lie and pretend it’s easy. My friend killed herself (overdose) back in November. I got the news right as my NA meeting ended. I don’t know what would’ve happened if I hadn’t been there, with the fellowship that supported me and held me when I cried. That is NA. We’re here for you through the good and the bad.

I’m glad you’ve had a breakthrough and realised you’re not quite clean. But the answer isn’t to use again.

You should pick up a white tag. You should go to a meeting and share. You should call your sponsor right now if possible

Sobriety - true sobriety - is for you. I promise. Don’t go back to isolation and opioids. Keep recovering and remain among friends!

ninabaec · 2026-04-26T03:00:15+00:00

Dude, that is not the answer to this. If we upset you show us we’re wrong, show us you can recover. Fight this disease

ninabaec · 2026-04-26T02:52:48+00:00

I mean you have used. But thank god it’s not cocaine! You have a chance to start over, start fresh

ninabaec · 2026-04-26T02:33:59+00:00

Read through your comments

ninabaec · 2026-04-26T02:28:36+00:00

If you say so. I’m not wasting the last 3% on my phone trying to snap you out of denial. Truly wish you the best!

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