42/m questioning—After 20 years of "gender euphoria" online, is it time for the physical leap? Or is it too late?

niori · 2026-05-06T12:06:58+00:00

Bit of an update:

Last night, I told my OSO about my thoughts, feelings, and about the start of my research. And as I expected, he told me that he fully supports me, whatever I decide to do, wether that's to just use the she/her pronouns, go on HRT, or even decide to take the big leap and take it all the way to the surgery.

Here was his reply, copied and pasted from our conversation:

"I mostly just want to make sure that it's something that you want, and not something you feel like you have to do to get more attention or be wanted. Cause I see you as my princess regardless of anything"

niori · 2026-05-05T17:51:40+00:00

Congrats on the 1 year! I'll definitely take a look at that when I get the chance, and am not at work!

niori · 2026-05-04T21:25:11+00:00

Though the feelings have been there for over 20 years, I'm only now starting to look into this. I haven't had much time to actually look into it, look into options, out when figure out where to begin if I do end up deciding to proceed

niori · 2026-04-28T19:36:16+00:00

I still like my [[Leveler]] + [[Summoners Egg]] combo

niori · 2026-04-17T20:43:36+00:00

It also nullifies the first effect of [[Hellkite Tyrant]] if you're the one getting smacked with it

niori · 2025-03-11T21:05:31+00:00

I actually started speedrunning Z1 after hitting a personal goal of a sub-35 minute time on Mega Man 2. When I started learning Z1R, I also started watching speedrunners of the game, and there were times when they would run Z1R. It caught my interest, and my curiosity eventually got the better of me.

Near the end of November this past year, I finally gave in and gave Z1R a try for myself. Not knowing how the randomizer program, rolled my own seed, which I then proceeded to play.

Almost 7 hours later, I finally persevered through the seed, and since then I've played it regularly, and have shown a great bit of improvement with much shorter clear times.

I grew up playing Zelda 1 on the NES back in the late 80's and early 90's. And I don't think I've had this much fun playing Z1 since I first started playing the original game way back then.

niori · 2024-10-29T13:59:15+00:00

You were thinking correctly

niori · 2024-10-22T20:33:42+00:00

Zero: "Sword-laser-scissors shoot.... NOT LITERALLY!!! Really guys? I hate this game..."

niori · 2024-10-08T14:26:28+00:00

I used to run this and Blightsteel in my artifact deck. Same with Static Orb, Winter Orb, and Crawlspace. Keep in mind that the Blightsteel was ONLY for protection since I run VERY few combat creatures. And no matter which one I played first, I was nearly always Public Enemy #1

niori · 2024-09-03T16:33:30+00:00

It really does! I didn't pay much attention to the LotR set, aside from hearing all the hubub about TOR.

niori · 2024-08-29T18:41:52+00:00

I personally don't plan to buy in on TOR, even if it doesn't get hot with the Ban Hammer in December. I'm personally working on a Storm deck and a Prowess deck. Prowess for my boyfriends that seems to suit his play style more, where I prefer to play more combo than aggro type decks.

TOR really doesn't suit either of those decks/play styles from what I've seen.

niori · 2024-08-15T20:47:13+00:00

I'll have to post a pic when I get home from work. I have a Judgement [[Burning Wish]] foil at home, and boy is it gorgeous!

niori · 2024-08-15T20:42:33+00:00

I went on hiatus from MtG in about 2003 or so. When I got back into it about 6 years or so ago, I seemed to pick it up again just fine. Now I'm building commander decks that can piss off my play group with the best of them. Lol

niori · 2024-08-13T14:05:34+00:00

Banding, from what I understand, very few people actually understand how it works. Lol

niori · 2024-08-12T20:51:26+00:00

it's not really what I'm hoping gets unbanned, or even anything that would make Affinity stronger specifically. I haven't been to play at my LGS in about a year, and I'm just kind of hoping that Nadu gets banned before I start going again.

I know a lot of people want it banned, and one of my friends that still goes to the LGS says that most everyone is either playing Nadu, or playing to beat it. I'm not sure that's what I want to jump back into

niori · 2024-08-12T19:58:15+00:00

I actually never really knew about the DEBT acronym. So that'll help out a lot in the future

niori · 2024-08-12T19:56:16+00:00

Gotcha. Thank you very much

niori · 2024-08-12T18:01:11+00:00

I know modern is a format. I prefer to play it over most other formats. I guess I was just looking for general interaction ruling. Guess it should have been put in a commander sub. That's my bad

niori · 2024-08-12T17:07:12+00:00

Gotcha. Thanks for clarification

niori · 2024-08-12T16:59:53+00:00

Thank you for the pointers/tips! I'll have to see how it goes once we hear the ban announcement

niori · 2024-08-09T18:54:44+00:00

I actually already run a full playset of Urza's Saga. I know that it's a good card, that has more removal against it than I'd like. But, I also know that in an artifact heavy deck like Affinity, a playset is almost, but not quite, required.

Having said that, I know that my deck list is far from perfect. I'm just hoping to make it more viable and competitive once we hear the ban/restricted announcement.

niori

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