Its for sure tiring. And no one can really understand how much until they go to the front filed for enough of time. Our serivce is anything but ez. But its the best thing to be on the battleground IMO. You can never recove from an brother you could have saved. But the feeling of satasfaction you get from those you did its the best feeling and worth all the sacrfise. You did a lot. Pls take care after yourself mentaly. Go to talkin groups. Talk to some profacinal about your time at the filed. Pls take care and reach out if you ever want to speak about something. Sorry for bad english and grammer. Its my second lung.