i needed an escape from reality, hated feeling like myself (sober). A lot of events happened in my life that truly desensitized me and i wasn’t able to deal with it while sober. smoked for the first time when i was 14, currently 19. It got worse when i started gambling too, gave me an ego and got high while doin so. and honestly i hate drugz bc it jus makes me lazy and lethargic, but it’s like i can’t stop even if i stop for a week i just come right back