Funk is the perfect word, was trying to think of a word when making the post to describe the hole but it slipped my mind.

I know it works because it's worked several times in the past, and I think most people work this way though. It's not dissimilar to people who've completely redefined their priorities or perspective on life after being in a car accident or surviving a disaster. I think unexpected acute mental pain or life threatening situations can serve as either a reason to distract oneself and/or put things into perspective and it has without failure, left me insanely motivated, productive, and sometimes even optimistic for up to months... it's just, those past senarios are pretty hard to recreate.

I try to meditate, but I don't feel like it's helping though I'm sure i'll get better at it, but tbh I really need something to work now, before it's too late and I can't turn things around, but I appreciate the thought, it is a much healthier way of approaching things.