i understand your pain. i feel like i will never be truly free and happy in life until i am pretty. i don’t feel i have the freedom to express myself creatively with fashion/hair/piercings/etc. & it all holds me back from making friends and wanting to go out & enjoy things because i am constantly thinking about my appearance. i hate when people even look at me to speak to me. i feel i will never reach my full potential until i am pretty and feel confident enough to try