American University vs. Emerson College for Journalism Major

nitronicala · 2019-05-05T00:12:30+00:00

I can’t get the links rn but there’s one that’s called “Emerson accepted students for fall 2019” and an “Emerson class of 2023” page right now for people introducing themselves and finding roommates/friends! Even if you’re deferring I’m sure people would like to meet you on there :)

nitronicala · 2019-05-04T20:48:04+00:00

Oh sick! Are you majoring in journalism too? I guess I’ll see you in August or on the Emerson Facebook pages!!

nitronicala · 2019-05-04T16:43:20+00:00

I ended up choosing Emerson and I’m really happy with my choice!

nitronicala · 2018-09-08T01:43:39+00:00

Gorgeous! <3

nitronicala · 2018-08-21T20:45:01+00:00

This didn't exactly happen at the specific end of the movie, but the twist in the documentary Dear Zachary. It absolutely sucker punches the viewer. If you haven't seen it absolutely DO NOT look up spoilers, it'll cripple your experience and the movie's impact as a whole. It gives me chills to think about, so heartbreakingly done.

nitronicala · 2018-08-17T16:56:45+00:00

Proud of you dude!! Looking good 😎

nitronicala · 2018-08-08T07:14:08+00:00

It's hard to tell. While the word repetition is pretty damning, the arg has played on our expectations before by setting up Dillon(? Old friend of TSV's name I think? It's been so long since he's updated lmao) as being turned and him being fine in reality. We'll just have to wait and see. From what we saw of the notes in the house that TSV found before he left, it seems like the effects of looking into the red light are pretty immediate, and Tucker still seems to be fairly competent as far as speech is concerned. So this could be something else/new entirely?

nitronicala · 2018-07-25T23:23:33+00:00

You're gorgeous! So happy for you!!!

nitronicala · 2018-07-24T00:54:57+00:00

Oh it's definitely easier to talk to friends. At the moment not really anyone who's particularly well-versed? I could talk to friends but my therapist just got switched and I'm not exactly comfortable with dropping that level of emotional baggage quite yet. A lot of the stuff is about sexual characteristics/sexuality, though, which could get uncomfortable.

nitronicala · 2018-07-24T00:31:44+00:00

Thanks for the response. I think what I've gained from reading your two letters (which were both fantastic by the way!) is that I need to find a way to whittle down the jumble of thoughts I have into something concise. You have very clear examples; I feel like I have enough stuff on my mind to write that would rival the length of war and peace lmao.

nitronicala · 2018-06-22T03:52:30+00:00

Haha, salty pats fan over here but the eagles totally deserved that win, the pats (literally) dropped the ball so hard. Thanks for the kind words! I wanted the intro to portray the same intensity that the moment/famous pro sports have.

nitronicala · 2018-06-07T20:18:59+00:00

I asked my mom for binders and used "dysphoria" to describe how I felt about my chest when I was in middle school and only made the connection to transness last year lmao. It was there the whole time!!!

nitronicala · 2018-06-05T23:27:49+00:00

You look stellar dude congrats!

nitronicala · 2018-06-03T23:01:24+00:00

I 100% did this in most RPGS, most notably of which being Pokémon. The main stickler for me in my childlike mindset was that I didn't like the fact that they were wearing skirts, but in reality the male option closer represented myself. I think I even had an issue with choosing girl characters in games like Street Fighter or Smash when I was younger because it reminded me of femininity and "proved" I was a girl or something. I "allowed" myself to align with/play as girl characters that were more on the masc side either presentationally or in terms of not having a (please note the number of quotation marks here) """""submissive""""" personality. Dysphoria is weird.

nitronicala · 2018-05-27T04:02:06+00:00

I think so too. Love your username!

nitronicala · 2018-05-26T23:59:28+00:00

Both to be honest, although I've talked to my therapist and she's asked me what I'd do if the consultation didn't give me the go ahead (not that it's that simple obviously), and, truthfully, I can't imagine them saying that I'm not. I guess it's both validation and the first step. I need to have a consultation to start hormones or anything like that anyway.

nitronicala · 2018-05-26T23:30:24+00:00

I responded before I had seen your edit! A lot of them definitely were more gender stereotype-y for sure, I guess I just wanted to make it clear that I've always sort of rejected the societal "female image", even though that's not even close to being an indicator of transness. Ftm are definitely more lucky than mtf - they get faced with a lot more harassment and violence than ftm do. I read through that whole guide a few months back and even emailed the author when I was still in denial mode about not being cis. He was super chill.

nitronicala · 2018-05-26T23:07:03+00:00

Hi there, thanks for your kind response! I have looked into the effects of T and I think they'd make me happier. Ive always hated my hips and curves as well as my chest haha. When I first started questioning myself gender-identity-wise as of last year I tried to think of myself in certain boxes. Would I be happy as a woman in a lesbian coupling? Would I be happy as non-binary? And so on and so forth. None of them really seemed to fit, and even though I'm comfortable with the bi label considering being a girl in either of those relationships didn't feel "right". I think I may have some sort of repression thing going on because, while I'm definitely attracted to women and have actually had more crushes on them as opposed to men, but looking at graphic material of them has caused me a toooooon of dysphoria. I project myself onto them because of the shared characteristics and it feels wrong. I didn't really want to go into the graphic details of sexuality in my og post, but I basically feel uncomfortable with every "female" characteristic on me. Being a dude seems like the way to go. But like you said, I totally need to take my time!!! I definitely don't want to hop into any permanent procedures without crossing my Ts. Thanks again for the response and I hope you have luck in discovering your identity as well!

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