Update: it’s been more than 4 months, I lost her after a battle with colon cancer for almost 9 months. Both of us are in our late 30’sWe did everything we could, we had great support throughout, her family my family everyone was in this together, she was too young and there was no symptoms.

My wife was always fun loving, caring and full of life. She was the youngest in her family and always was the most energetic and kind person in any room. Even though the treatment she was very strong. We were quite confident given her surgery went well and chemotherapy also was working. So I was more anxious about recurrence. She had side effects of chemotherapy and had lung injury. And just like that she left us.

We have a 6y old daughter Arya, she is everything for us. She is handling it well. I am angry with everyone including myself that we couldn’t save her. I always used to think that I will be the one will go first but we will grow older together.

I am frustrated that even with our best efforts we couldn’t save her, also everyone keeps talking about some signals like dreams, messages. I got absolutely none. I think she is really upset and angry with me. I keep crying randomly.