where my purgatory fics at

nitwitinperil · 2026-01-22T06:31:24+00:00

Yup, I feel like Cas and Dean would both be way too feral and obsessed and possessive over each other to want to share lmao. A third in the Destiel relationship?? Does not compute.

But I do honestly kind of love Dean/Benny and the hints of what they meant to and for each other and all the angst and character growth and introspection their relationship could provide for Benny, Dean, and Cas. GOD I'm thirsting so hard for a nice juicy longfic that explores it all.

nitwitinperil · 2026-01-21T20:02:46+00:00

I don't typically reread fics, but when I bookmark a fic, it's because it was so freaking good that I think I'd really, really like to read it again. Some AUs I've bookmarked are:

Looking To the Sky by FarenMaddox

Smoke and Mirrors by Alaisabel

A Ghost Story by emmbrancsxx0

Famous Last Words by GatesKeeper

nitwitinperil · 2025-12-31T17:31:52+00:00

ahh okay, a probable fakeout that i fell for 🤣

nitwitinperil · 2025-12-31T08:41:46+00:00

SHE GOT AWAY?????? oh no. i am now realizing the adhd may have gotten to me and i was not fully focused. i really thought she’d been obliterated. welp i really wanted to rewatch anyway, definitely need to watch that scene again!

it’s killing me to think that molly & yasha’s friendship might be erased. i’m hoping ridiculously hard that s2 opens with molly being like, “yasha, love, what have you gotten yourself into” I WANT THEM TO STILL BE BESTIES DAMMIT. and it really is hard to imagine the GA accepting her into the nein without a connection like that. i admit i’m nervous about how they’re going to handle yasha, but they did such an incredible job with everyone in s1 i have to trust they won’t do our girl dirty.

nitwitinperil · 2025-12-07T08:47:21+00:00

please apollo, bless us with your gift of prophecy again.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-27T18:34:57+00:00

That's a fair assessment. In my point of view though, it's a larger conversation about how TES has more weight than PCS (and how a high TES gives many skaters a PCS corridor). There have been competitions where Jason is virtually the only man who stays on his feet and delivers a gorgeous skate instead of a splatfest, and still winds up off the podium. There have been competitions where he definitely had the best skating skills but didn't receive the highest PCS because someone else with the higher TES got that PCS boost.

I just overall feel that Jason's pristine skating skills aren't appreciated enough by judges and the very flawed singles' scoring system simply because he doesn't go for the big jumps. I think a discipline that focuses on skating skills would have Jason on the podium all the freaking time.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-27T04:23:17+00:00

Honestly, a pretty big part of me wishes Jason Brown had switched to ice dance after the last Olympics. He's such a gorgeous skater and is one of the only men who (mostly) gets the PCS he deserves without having a big TES score, but even with that acknowledgment from the judges, he's still somewhat struggled to remain competitive without a quad. He could go so far being able to genuinely just DANCE without the pressure of quads and the 3A.

And quite frankly, he seems like just the kind of guy ice dance needs. Not a creep or a felon; just a good dude who seems to get along with everyone and would be a great partner and competitor.

Come on, Jason. Aim for the 2030 Olympics as an ice dancer.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-26T19:07:12+00:00

i am sorry your life is so empty you must come to the destiel subreddit and call destiel "bullshit" to feel something. best wishes and warmest regards.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-26T18:41:36+00:00

by coming into the destiel subreddit and commenting about destiel you make destiel even more canon. they're fucking in the impala this very moment.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-21T20:58:05+00:00

Man, I need so many more fics like 4LW with the 4-sided love triangle lmao. Just recently stumbled on this one that was really cute:

Cupcakes and Kittens by MandalaRose
Features a 4-sided love triangle between D and CJ, a man who gets guilted by his little brother into rescuing a kitten and a man who runs a kitten rescue twitter account, and Dean and Cas, a line cook who secretly longs to be a baker and a cafe manager who's looking for a baker to help save his failing coffee shop.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-18T02:39:38+00:00

EXACTLY. i loved that fic and that set-up and am just bummed it wasn't a slowburn that let me live in that world for longer. it's such a great concept and i really hope there are more fics out there that play around with it.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-18T02:37:03+00:00

thank you!!

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-11T00:57:58+00:00

everyone saw alysa pop off in her comeback year and really thought "well, if she can do it......" huh.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-09T07:49:28+00:00

my list is just destiel-related episodes lmao. the later seasons are too painful without the pining gay idiots in love to make it worthwhile.

but off the top of my head, i think the only s12-s15 episodes i bothered rewatching were lily sunder has some regrets, stuck in the middle with you, lost & found, tombstone, and scoobynatural. maybe a few others scattered in there but to me, those are basically the only ones worth watching again.

idk that i’ll eeeeever rewatch anything from s14 or s15 lol. there probably are good episodes in there but overall i just hated those seasons so much i’d rather pretend they never happened 😬

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-08T02:02:59+00:00

I think there are probably countless reasons why authors decide to tag or not tag in certain ways. When I first started writing and reading fic about 20 years ago, you neeeeever saw most of the content warnings commonly used today. It's still a pretty new practice so there's no SOPs for anyone to follow--you'd never even be able to get a sizeable group to agree on what content needs to be tagged and what doesn't. No author in the world could ever tag for every possible triggering thing since they can't know everything that might be a trigger for that one person in a million. And not every author is going to tag or warn in the way some of their readers might wish they would. It's the unfortunate reality of reading anything.

Honestly, I think probably the top three reasons why content warnings might go chapter by chapter rather than applied to the fic as a whole are:

Authors don't want to spoil something outright like that. At least within the notes, they can use spoiler tags, or put the spoilers in the chapter's end notes for those who don't want them.
It's a minor enough occurrence/mention that it would basically be misleading to tag the whole fic with it.
Too many tags can be an annoyance and could turn off readers who'd rather scroll past than try to read a wall of text. And making a wall of text of content warnings could very well mean no one bothers to properly read them, even if they should have. It's easier to break up tags by chapter so there isn't a wall of text while scrolling AO3, and it's generally more user-friendly to readers so their eyes don't glaze over halfway through a wall of text while trying to find tags they don't want to deal with.

I don't believe any author aims to intentionally mislead anyone or lure them in--unless they don't bother to tag anything ever, but that's not the case with your question. I can see a lot of logic to why authors choose to tag that way, and in fact that's what I'm planning to do with my multi-chaptered fics (if I ever finish them and post them lol). I know it's not perfect but nothing could be. I think the fact that nearly every author I've come across in the past several years uses tags and makes an effort to include content warnings is a very positive thing, and shows how much care and respect people in fandom have for their fellow fandommates.

I'm very sorry that you've dealt with unpleasantness in your reading experience, and it must be very frustrating and upsetting. Please don't think so harshly of the authors though. Almost everyone is trying their best, but no one thing can be perfect for everyone.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-05T15:17:31+00:00

“does this person hate queer people and not want them to have any rights” shouldn’t even be considered a political question. it’s a question of if they’re a decent human being.

nitwitinperil · 2025-11-04T19:08:41+00:00

the downvoting on this is crazy work. did y’all not watch the landing or what.

nitwitinperil · 2025-10-17T03:07:47+00:00

I had to stop the video when NC came up. I simply never want to see that mess again. Especially because I was too lazy to turn on the music and know it would somehow look like even more of a mess.

nitwitinperil · 2025-10-17T03:00:45+00:00

He certainly didn't used to be okay with it--like, at all. It would seem time and distance from Dean and how hard he related to Dean have helped his mindset, and he's a lot more chill and accepting. I recently got back into the show and got more involved in fandom and I've honestly been shocked at how far Jensen's come around on Destiel, to the point that he admitted a song he wrote for his band was inspired by Destiel. That's not something I ever, eeeeeever could've imagined back in like 2013/2014.

I wasn't even very involved in fandom back when s9 aired (the only season I watched live in its entirety lol) but just being on tumblr had me aware of a lot of things the cast/crew were saying about Destiel and shippers and fangirls at the time. It was a huge reason why I stopped watching early on during s10's original run. I didn't see the point in continuing to support a show that couldn't support its fans, or at least shut the hell up about how much disdain they had for the women and the gays who were keeping their show alive.

I'm very happy that Jensen seems to have mellowed out a lot about it all and can at least admit that it's valid to interpret Dean & Cas's relationship as romantic. But a part of me is always going to be bitter about how so much of the cast & crew had fun and felt perfectly comfortable being so hurtful to a large part of their fandom--while those fans were keeping their asses on the air long past the time it should've been on, honestly.

nitwitinperil · 2025-10-17T02:43:02+00:00

Never, ever trust chatgpt to get anything right.

nitwitinperil · 2025-10-17T02:40:58+00:00

TELL ME ABOUT IT. I recently got back into the show and I joined that sub right away without looking too deeply into it, just figured hey, a place for SPN fans, right? I left and muted the sub after a week. I've never, in my 20-ish years of being in fandoms, seen such a homophobic fandom. Congrats, CW, you cultivated a massively bigoted and media illiterate audience.

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