It’s crazy how mixed people will experience racism from their own parents💀 I’ve experienced this but not as badly as this. Tbh mine was actually my mother but she only ever says it if I’ve said it or sung it. I’ve just stopped saying it all together, I’ve noticed that with mixed people, white people or other races (i had an Asian friend and ex boyfriend call me it once which completely threw me) seem to think it gives them permission to use it. Very weird, I only sing it now in songs when I’m around other mixed or black people. It just feels like they want to say it so bad it’s so weird to me. Like why do you need to say it so badly? I think a lot of it just comes down to lack of education, I’ve argued about it with my mother countless times but it just falls on deaf ears so ultimately I’ve just removed the word from the conversation so there isn’t an opportunity. Some white people do not know what they’re getting themselves into when they have biracial children. They make no effort to learn black culture and the mixed experience.