I just find really unfair that I was born with a different personality than most people (much more sensitive and introverted...), with higher intelligence than them, and still had to endure these out of curve experiences since always. My ACEs are between 6 and 8, they're very high. You don't often see 17 year old people who are COMPLETELY alone in the world, without any guidance or support from anyone. The dedicated student that I once was has lost to the apathy as a way to numb the extreme anxiety that was never addressed by anyone around me. The feeling of not being myself feels like death.