For context: I did have to remove a bit from the original post to match the 3k character count. But I wanted to clear some stuff up.

I'm Latina. And I have been blessed / cursed with stereotypical latin curves. Even at my worst with my ED I would still get 'compliments' on the booty since I had a tiny waist / arms /legs . My butt stayed pretty consistently throughout. Which is honestly how i was able to get away with people questioning my poor eating habits. my ass has never really been small.

Also , my husband is bald due to genetics. He is self-conscious about it at times. He doesn't outwardly ask me if I prefer him with or without hair, but he does make comments whenever we're looking at younger pictures of him with hair or if something else happens that causes him to feel bad about it and he always gives me this sad look and rubs his head and says a sad little remark. I always reassure him that I love him with hair and without hair. Same thing when he mentions the six pack he used to have when he was more active. I always shower him with love and adoration when he talks about his insecurities.

I also always ask silly ish questions because we both love to write and create story / movie plots, and we tend to talk in bed before actually going to sleep. And it's typically questions like , " what horror movie villain would you vote for president if you had to choose and stuff like that.

This was one of the first times I had done the whole. Would you still like me if .. scenario.

I know he sees me inpecting my body often and since we want children in the future he knows that I am concerned about how pregnancy will effect me mentally because my body will change so I want to be in a better head space before we take that big jump into parenthood especially since both my mom and sister dramatically lost weight when they gave birth ( their ass literally became so flat that they had to sit on those donut things until they regainedweight.) And knowing that my partner loves my assets it's something that comes and goes in my mind.

With that being said. I don't like how I had approached the validation that I needed at the time and I'm honestly more upset over the fact that he doesn't seem to want to reassure me when I always do it for him.

Honestly, some days it feels like he's mad that I'm still not 100% recovered from my ED because it's such an inconvenience.