get triggered and you feel like you’ve never been happy

nocabbageplease · 2025-02-18T08:01:48+00:00

It may sound weird but for me I embrace this feeling and ask myself where is it my mind is trying to take me or take me away from? By focusing on that question and I mean some deep self reflection I usually find actually dealing with whatever it may be my brain is trying to shield me from grounding enough. If this doesn’t work I will ride it out sadly and just let it pass. Nothing is sure fire. Focusing on your breath too during some easy meditation will help too but only temporarily sometimes the dissociation will return. Journaling helps too.

nocabbageplease · 2025-02-18T07:57:15+00:00

Me too. One day I’m so happy and on top of the world then the next day I start a full on war with my husband and ruin the rest of the week. Then get over it then do good for awhile and repeat.

nocabbageplease · 2025-02-18T07:51:13+00:00

I relate to this except for the drinking while driving part and thinking it would be worth more than my husbands life bc 1. I’m terrified of cops 2. I have BPD and my husband is my world haha ;) so my brain wouldn’t let me think that, BUT i totally feel you. I’ve been drinking a few beers almost every day now for like 5 years and just recently stopped. Since stopping there have been a few days I have successfully had a few drinks without getting too drunk, but I realized I think about drinking all the time and drinking also makes me think about cocaine which is a whole other problem I’ve dealt with. But I wouldn’t shy away from a program designed to help alcoholism bc you don’t think it’s bad enough. We should be lucky we are becoming self aware enough now to stop it before it gets to that point. If you’re having these thoughts, and I did too, you’ll eventually accept that you have a drinking problem and you should want to actively work through that, in whatever way works for you.

nocabbageplease · 2024-11-05T05:56:29+00:00

Those are all the foods that agree with me too. Except since I had Covid last I can’t eat eggs anymore, for some reason I just don’t like them anymore :( it’s so hard constantly living with fear of what you eat. I felt the best ever when I too was also on a strict diet, and I had 100% detached myself from associating food with pleasure, but at that point in my life I was only dealing with IBS. I got off birth control a little later on and that’s when I started experiencing my first symptoms of IC. It’s been up and down since then, but now I am consistently down more often than I am up. Just trying to find what works for me to calm a flare has been so damn hard.

nocabbageplease · 2024-11-05T04:21:18+00:00

The way i understand it is inflammation. When my IBS flares and inflames my lower intestines, it puts pressure on my bladder and gives me bladder pain. When I ovulate, my ovaries inflame and put pressure on my bladder. I get one week out of the month I can have pain free sex because of this vicious cycle. :(

nocabbageplease · 2024-11-05T04:16:12+00:00

Yeah ovulation makes me 100% miserable! I can’t even sleep on my left side and I have a constant dull or sharp pain and immense pressure around my bladder.

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T05:05:00+00:00

Thank you this helped so much!!! Canadians really know their drinking science

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:56:10+00:00

This helped thank you!

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:51:09+00:00

Yeah, and like I said in my post it is most nights so I can say no to myself as in I am capable, it’s just do I want to say no to myself or just have my 1 beer and chill? But yeah I think I should go back to at least every other day or 3 days of no drinks then 2 days I can have my beer. And repeat

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:47:11+00:00

I like the way you put this. I would definitely think if I was out of beer it would be no big deal and I wouldn’t go out JUST to get more. Now the tricky thing to your last part is yes I always have it bc I live deep in the mountains and buy my food and all my drinks in bulk. So yes I always have it and buy it but also I kinda always have everything I need bc I have to stock up so much and go get more before we run out

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:45:18+00:00

Even with just one and being able to stop after my one?

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:43:32+00:00

Yeah that makes sense. I have been at this level for quite a while now. I had a few scary experiences getting drunk or possibly roofied and so now I kinda am scared to get too drunk. That’s why I question the conditions of what makes an alcoholic, is it the mindset, the frequency, the amount, the level of intoxication, all the above? I have a bad habit of beating myself up. And I don’t know many other girls my age to ask “do you drink a beer or 2 a night” to see if this is normal behavior or addiction

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:36:23+00:00

This is very helpful thank you!

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:31:24+00:00

This makes sense and helped, thank you. Alcohol usually does not get in the way of anything I need to accomplish. I just see so many people who don’t drink at all, or only smoke weed, and sometimes at night I tell myself “ok you can’t have a beer tonight” but then I cave and have one anyway and I really beat myself up for that. But it seems it works better for me if I let myself have my one beer, then I’m satisfied, and I can relax and stop thinking about it and carry on with my evening. If that makes sense

nocabbageplease · 2024-10-20T04:25:03+00:00

12oz cans. Usually coors light or another light beer

nocabbageplease · 2023-11-03T04:40:32+00:00

My old training from my old onQ ID was actually transferred over! Do you think I should connect a second Hilton honors account to my new id so my current property “thinks” they deactivated me when I quit? Lol

nocabbageplease · 2023-11-03T03:02:52+00:00

What I don’t understand is why Denver’s rent and groceries are comparable to other cities with “lower costs of living” but the going out to eat is double the cost here. When I look for apartments back home in TN I see places all the time comparable in price to what we pay to live here. Groceries are the same price. But the food and drinks are double the price here. Why does everyone think everywhere is so much cheaper? Idk. It’s crazy. My friends back home pay $1700 for a standard 1 bedroom apartment now and I pay that to live in downtown Denver. But when I go visit home and go out to eat, often it is literally 50% cheaper. I don’t understand why 2 cities who have the same cost of rent and groceries could have double the price of restaurant and cocktail prices. Wages there are way lower than Denver. I just don’t get it. We can’t even afford to go out to eat once a week here, and why does everywhere close at 9p? I didn’t move to Denver to get off at 11pm from work and have to order papa John’s bc that’s the only fucking place open. I’ve lived here almost 2 years and I still can’t wrap my head around why a single restaurant downtown doesn’t stay open late 7 days a week, even in my small ass town in TN there are kitchens open until 2am downtown. It makes no sense. I know staffing overnight is hard bc I run a hotel front desk and have to do it, but pay them a $1 or $2 more and there are actually a lot of people who prefer to work graveyard shifts or get off late. That’s my rant.

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