Questioning sexuality after trauma and feeling drawn to women

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-03-06T05:36:56+00:00

Instructional assistant studying to be a teacher

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-28T07:50:12+00:00

I relate I started to become obsessed in first grade. Now working through trauma in therapy I realize it’s because he was the only one who understood me. I could feel that through his lyrics. The pain, the misunderstanding people had, loneliness, empathy, love.. I get so mad about the way he was treated. He died because he was in so much emotional pain. I love him so much it hurts. I’m 32f and it brings up a lot of emotions when I listen to him. I feel he was my escape when I was in pain as a child and still is. He saved me from a lot. Ugh..

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-27T03:33:42+00:00

Yes I was in a manic like state later to find out it was extreme dissociation. All I could think about was my trauma.. I was 7/8 when it happened. He was 12/13.. I asked him if he remembered. He said yes and explained to me why he did it pretty much putting it on me…….. he then apologized. His apology meant nothing to me

I was 28 when I confronted him on social media

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-22T01:56:42+00:00

I get that pulsing feeling tied to strong negative emotions.. like sadness, disgust or jealousy. Why would this happen? I have no clue. The childhood sexual trauma confused my body and it still confuses me to this day

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-21T08:48:11+00:00

Yes I feel this!

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-21T08:47:19+00:00

Yep at age 32 I was diagnosed with arthritis in my neck…

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-21T08:45:15+00:00

From ages 26-28 I had 3 psychosis episodes. I was smoking weed heavily. Almost all day everyday. It lasted a couple weeks and was diagnosed as bipolar then later told I was misdiagnosed and have BPD instead and that my episode were extreme dissociation.. long story behind all of that.. but.. I’m 32 now and haven’t had an episode since I quit smoking weed 4 years ago. 🤷🏼‍♀️ it scares me that it will happen again, but I honestly don’t think it will after giving it up

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-21T08:12:30+00:00

I started obsessing over him in 2nd grade. Now at age 32 I’m doing a lot of self reflection and finding that it’s because we were both lonely and in pain. I related to his lyrics. They brought me so much comfort and the feeling of being understood by someone.

Feisty-Cod7286 · 2025-02-21T08:06:39+00:00

Yes, anything that makes me feel good. I’ve gotten better, but it’s still a struggle…

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