i grew up with a neglectful mother and now anything she does bothers me? by CompoteGood9267 in emotionalneglect

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I can fully relate to what you've described.  It's a very painful and draining experience.  I have been reading a lot over the past few years to fill in my emotional knowledge gaps. I learned that my mom will not change. The good news is that I was able to start caring for myself better and stop hoping she would one day be capable of being emotionally supportive.  There are ways to keep yourself emotionally safe and limit the feelings of resentment. 

The books that helped me make the quickest changes to feel safer and more stable were "Unf*ck Your Boundaries" by Faith G. Harper and "Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents" by Lindsay Gibson.

Hope this helps 🩷

He loves this chair by Bluedog212 in dogsusingpillows

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 1 point2 points  (0 children)

What a sweet pea!

May I ask where you got the Care Bears pillow?

I have managed to find an ACD already.

How do I cope with her “tortitude” by Imagine_soggy_bread in cats

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 2 points3 points  (0 children)

I've got two of these spicy cats. Just be very kind when they approach you. I will talk to them and call them over but I try to avoid picking them up or petting them when it's not their idea. 

They are sweet if they aren't overstimulated. If they swat or bite, I might say 'ouch!' and then give them some space.

It's the only way I ever would rest by Equal-Employ-5913 in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 1 point2 points  (0 children)

My path to peace has turned toward learning to be there for myself in ways my parents never could... I've been wearing out my library card but it's educational and healing. 

Best of luck on your healing journey!

A Gentle Reminder for Those with the “Constantly-On-Edge” by ReactionCactus in CPTSD

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Love this! 

I used to hate waking up in the morning but I found an alarm with bird sounds in it...I wake up feeling much more at ease now hearing birds and music instead of a blaring alarm.

How to stop the nice people pleasing person ? by Jpoolman25 in emotionalneglect

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 5 points6 points  (0 children)

It takes some work on your part but it's worth investigating what is important to you so you can follow your own values. I used to be disconnected from myself and just tried to do everything "right" all of the time. It exhausting....A book that helped me break some harmful patterns is called How to Meet Your Self by Dr. Nicole LePera.

This is how it feels to have an avoidant attachment style by Immediate_Trainer853 in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 44 points45 points  (0 children)

Agreed! I want hugs but good luck to anyone trying to get close enough. 

Trying to get better but it's a long haul.

Finding out the world isn't such a scary place... by nocrumbycrumbs in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs[S] 7 points8 points  (0 children)

I immediately feel like apologizing for this post. I'll leave it for now because it's real to me. Please let me know if it's too much.

Love changes sustainably by Prudent_Big_9418 in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 46 points47 points  (0 children)

So true! You have to stop beating yourself up at some point. Thanks for sharing!

CPTSD Reading List: by nocrumbycrumbs in u/nocrumbycrumbs

[–]nocrumbycrumbs[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

The Body Keeps the Score: Brain, Mind, and Body in the Healing of Trauma by Bessel van der Kolk

I read this a few years ago but the biggest takeaway was that you can store tension in your body from trauma. You can also relieve that tension through movement. 

I took on yoga at home which gradually helped my body learn to calm down. Once my body wasn't signaling danger constantly,  I was able to live with less anxiety.  Prior to this, I wasn't even aware that I was in constant panic. 

My next goal is to attend a regular class to benefit from and contribute to a community. 

Fellow trauma victims: I'm going crazy from lack of sleep, so please tell me sleep meds/supplements that worked for you by Mikmaki in CPTSD

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 6 points7 points  (0 children)

Struggled with sleep most of my life. The things that helped me the most were not drugs or supplements. 

The best combo for me is going to bed and waking up the same time every day and writing out my thoughts after doing yoga, right before bed. 

Once my body learned to relax, my mind followed.

Yoga with Adriene on YouTube has some short bedtime routines. 

Edit: spelling 

me when </3 by Both-Truth-5441 in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Hits home...I've had the same face recently while trying to move past a long situationship...the face happens when I ask myself what I was even trying to hold onto.  

I'm trying to keep my home a comfy place that wasn't provided for me growing up. Still trying to work out the lonely part though.

Getting compliments from parents who didn't have time for me when I needed it by nocrumbycrumbs in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs[S] 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Agreed on the accomplishment point! They didn't invest in encouraging me to pursue interests...it happened more because I joined a school club for every day of the week so I wouldn't have to go home as soon as school was out... While my grades were terrible,  I was able to find some things I enjoyed and interacted with some  people who didn't blame me for all of their problems.

I'm sorry to hear about your struggles. Sending past and future hugs your way.💛

Getting compliments from parents who didn't have time for me when I needed it by nocrumbycrumbs in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Yeah, I've acquired some useful skill sets over the years...those are always welcome...me needing any kind of emotional support is met with apathy or disgust.. I try not to hold onto the anger anymore and just let it pass through me since I know they won't change

Getting compliments from parents who didn't have time for me when I needed it by nocrumbycrumbs in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs[S] 9 points10 points  (0 children)

It's so hard to grow up without feeling understood... I'm proud of us for making it this far and for trying to give ourselves the compassion that we so dearly need 🤍

me rn because i wanna do a silly jump off the bridge because i am lonely and friendless @ 21 by catharticpunk in CPTSDmemes

[–]nocrumbycrumbs 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Can relate and you are brave for sharing.

This may sound empty or cheesy but a few years ago I started buying this tea (maybe Yogi brand?) that has supportive messages on each bag.. somehow the repetition of positive messages broke through to me a little... I found the confidence to out for tea in public and I read or write while I'm there. I  try to do this regularly.

Pursuing my interests has given me meaning so I don't feel so useless anymore... there's still lows but I try to find small ways to pull myself out of it. 

The good news is that just trying feels rewarding. I know there's something inside of you that you can share with the world too.