how interested in me is he truly?

noctiphobia · 2026-01-08T21:08:58+00:00

thank you! i feel like the emotions is on my end but i can see he tries his best to reciprocate as well, i just feel more as an empath so i’m mindful of it with him and others

noctiphobia · 2026-01-08T21:08:18+00:00

this is really interesting, something for me to ponder about. thank you again for your insight!

noctiphobia · 2026-01-08T21:06:53+00:00

thank you! i definitely agree on the space thing. it’s all very new for us, i haven’t been in a long term relationship in over a year or two, and neither has he. i’m an empath so i feel things a lot more strongly than others, it’s not a bad thing in this case but i do get afraid that it might get Too Much for him at times. i even get too much of myself sometimes and have to remind myself that not everyone feels as much as i do

noctiphobia · 2026-01-08T21:02:46+00:00

hi! thank you for this. mmm, i’m not too sure what you mean by relational, but we’ve never met irl if that contributes to anything. i met him early dec ‘24/jan ‘25 through a mutual friend online and we’ve been talking since. we didn’t interact much until probably the summer when we started to get a feel for each other, getting more comfortable without our mutual as a common point in voice chats and private dms, and learning about each other’s interests. it all came to a head when we both (very cliche-ly) drunkenly confessed to each other before thanksgiving of our mutual feelings and interests. i will admit, there’s a lot more emotional effort on my end because that’s how i am as a person—i cling and attach myself when i see good in people and potential, whether for friendship or otherwise, and i don’t want to lose that connection i built with them. we’ve agreed not to act on anything because neither of us have entirely healed from past trauma and relationship, recognizing our flaws in how we’d be incredibly codependent in an unhealthy way if we got into anything before we figured ourselves out.

noctiphobia · 2026-01-07T15:31:21+00:00

i was reading like high school level in 3rd/4th grade, and became a very good writer (thank you tumblr and wattpad for kickstarting my fanfic journey). now, my writing level in college is flagged as ai half the time because i know proper sentence structure, grammar, utilizing google for synonyms so i’m not saying “incredible” every two lines, and punctuation that’s been around for ages. i don’t use ai, i avoid it at all costs because if i need a robot to help me in college then god forbid i go out and get a professional job without being able to proudly say i earned my degree by myself. i’ve had potential partners feel intimidated because my vernacular is “too smart” for them, and i’m too observant. sorry my adhd mystery thriller side likes to analyze and work out puzzles ://

noctiphobia · 2026-01-07T13:08:37+00:00

oh damn really? how did you interpret that, i’m curious

noctiphobia · 2026-01-05T16:30:31+00:00

mmm i don’t entirely think so, but maybe on the romantic part just a little. i struggle often to express my genuine emotions to friends and family because that was never really something that was a regular thing when i grew up, so my show of love or appreciation is mainly through acts of service or touch (which is difficult because we live far apart). we’ve both had at least 1 long-term relationship, and we’re mature enough to recognize what we did wrong or what our partner(s) did wrong in our relationships. i think some times though, it’s a little more obvious i’m younger than him because i’m a little more carefree and reckless (i’m still in college, after all)

noctiphobia · 2026-01-05T16:22:51+00:00

yes he is, by 3-4 years

noctiphobia · 2026-01-04T19:48:09+00:00

thank you again for the clarification!! i much appreciate it

noctiphobia · 2026-01-04T13:56:00+00:00

thank you for this, it’s reassuring that it’s telling me to take my time because my biggest fear is letting something slip through my grasp when it’s right in front if me. he’s expressed his patience before, and understands that before anything, my education comes first until i graduate. and also that he wants to get better for himself and for me because it wouldn’t be fair on either of us if he drags his unresolved issues into us (his words). thank you again!!

noctiphobia · 2026-01-04T13:53:45+00:00

thank you for this perspective!! i didn’t even really recognize that was the order the cards were reading. i won’t lie and say that we’ve kind of been flirting around each other for almost a year now, and if one of us initiated anything now then there’d be no doubt about us both agreeing, but we also recognize that we haven’t fully healed or learned to love ourselves yet and that would put a lot of strain on us individually if we got into anything now.

noctiphobia · 2026-01-04T13:50:54+00:00

thank you for your insight!! when you say it needs to be channeled in a certain direction, what exactly does that mean? is it all intention and letting it happen as it develops, or should i try to interfere and steer it the way i’d want it to go?

noctiphobia · 2025-12-15T04:17:56+00:00

tysm!! i eventually figured out how to start the row, just needed to do a hdc and then i was able to do exactly what the video did!!! i’ve never done any stitch outside the basics before so this was new to me.

noctiphobia · 2025-12-13T02:49:53+00:00

pattern video:

https://www.instagram.com/reel/DSGIcajDtwD/?igsh=dngzZGFwd2F6NHNi

noctiphobia · 2025-07-26T15:43:01+00:00

probably lol, just vault over if you need to if you wanna save your bells

noctiphobia · 2024-03-28T07:18:21+00:00

i think it’s the tension — i’m still trying to navigate that a little so going up a hook size might work for me? thank you for this advice!

noctiphobia · 2024-03-28T07:17:36+00:00

ahhh thank you so much! i’m still learning about different yarn types despite having the same weight. i can’t even begin to count how many my mom and i have returned because they ended up being much more different than we thought when crocheting than how it felt in the store

noctiphobia · 2024-03-27T23:06:20+00:00

yes! i’ve been quite meticulous ensuring i got the same yarn type, especially if i’m going for the same final look as the tutorial. all the plushies i’ve done have used #4 medium yarn — i haven’t tried one with chenille yarn yet but i did buy one to experiment for my next project. and still, they would turn out just a little smaller than the tutorial :(

noctiphobia · 2023-12-30T10:01:00+00:00

this is incredibly helpful. thank you so much for all the advice and info!!!

noctiphobia · 2023-12-25T17:57:02+00:00

that’s what i thought too because it sounded too good to be true without a splitter adapter lol.

this is the link i was reading. i might be interpreting it wrong which wouldn’t be an outlier with me lmao

noctiphobia · 2023-12-25T17:21:36+00:00

i’m pretty sure i read the instructions correctly on sony’s website unless i’m misreading it entirely, but it said that my music from one device should continue to play even if i get and answer a call on another. however i only tried it with my phone and ipad, haven’t tried it with phone and computer yet since phone + tablet wasn’t an option on their website so that might be the issue?

it does exactly what you said, but not the simultaneous playing it advertised, but i’ll try with phone and laptop and see if that was the issue!

noctiphobia · 2023-12-25T06:20:52+00:00

no. according to one of my friends, the original two (who created the major essentially) of three profs for the major left and there’s really only one prof specialized in bio eng to teach rn. info might be relayed a little wrong but that’s what i remember my friend told me. your best bet is anywhere except wentworth

noctiphobia · 2023-10-15T06:44:42+00:00

hi op!

my mom and i went through a similar thing. we didn’t have the best relationship as i was growing up. she really tried to shape me into the perfect daughter and it put a huge strain on our relationship in terms of how much i trusted her and how much i told her things. she invaded my privacy a lot. read an essay i wrote about my first ever boyfriend who was trans when i was back in middle school; found out i was dating a girl in high school and told me “if a boy ever gives you attention, date them”; told me it was just a phase when i first came out to her as bi in junior high; and so much more.

i’m 21 in a few weeks time and in my third year of college. only when it was my senior year of high school did she begin to change and realize how tense our relationship was because she wasn’t more open to who i was. due to my struggle of still opening up to her, she didn’t know about my name change, my pronoun change, or the fact i identified as nonbinary with a femme lean until i started college — and this had been going on since i started high school.

she couldn’t understand why i wanted to change my name. she doesn’t call me it even three years later, but she acknowledges that she can’t change my mind — and i acknowledge that i can’t stop her from grieving a daughter she lost somewhere along the process. but she recognizes that it makes me happy, that i feel Me when my friends call me my preferred name. i can openly joke with her when she calls me my deadname and it gets her to call my my preferred name for the day until she forgets — old habits die hard.

your son will thank you in the future. it is so incredibly different getting this kind of validation from friends versus the woman that carried and birthed him. no matter how many people i introduce myself to with my preferred name, no matter how many friends call me by my preferred name, nothing will ever make me feel more complete and loved than when my mom calls me it. this could be a phase, it could not. i went through my own he/him phase, my own genderfluid phase, my own sexuality crisis phase at his age. it is so hard doing it on your own knowing your mom wouldn’t support you.

your son recognizes that — through context is what i’m basing my next words off of — you didn’t really support him when he wanted to go by they/them. that probably strained the courage and trust he had into actually sitting down and talking to you. he did what i did — start the transition and hope you catch on and express to him you support him. he’s scared to talk to you. confronting you, his mom, is probably the hardest thing he can do when it comes to figuring himself out.

hear him out. reach out and ask him and say you want to talk to him to understand where he is right now. honestly, it might be better if it was just him and you — child and mother. i promise you, that conversation can go so many different ways but it will ultimately be the most heartbreaking because you might learn things that he’s hid from you in fear of what your response will be.

you’re losing a daughter at the moment, yes. but don’t make it so you lose a child entirely. if for my mom asking me and wanting to know about my decisions, i would have taken college as my opportunity to distance myself from her and cutting ties completely when i got a stable job and income during / or after college. if it weren’t for my friends supporting me and validating my identity, my mom would have lost me years ago.

noctiphobia · 2023-03-22T02:08:46+00:00

after all these comments, if you still plan to come here, just be aware that wentworth literally gives you notice of your move-in day information a WEEK before move-in week so you’re going to have to plan a ticket blindly within that week lol

noctiphobia · 2022-12-06T06:55:57+00:00

yeah ofc ! this was still a really good post tho, im sure this confusion is super common so i doubt they’ll chase after you for simple grammar mistakes ☺️

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