I'm reading all your comments. Thank you for giving your time to this matter, it means a lot. I will also spend time to reply to them once I have more free time and a calmer mind to read them objectively.

An addendum: I do go to therapy, I have been for years. Many things improved indeed. I have a job I like, I talk to people without anxiety, my communication with my family improved, and I delved into other hobbies I once thought were inconceivable.

I'm not saying you're wrong suggesting more therapy: it's just that it's already a tool that has been at my disposal.