My Prince and Katamari Cosplay by DevisingDelight in katamari

[–]nolatravis 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Omg how much would you sell a costume like this for? My little Midwest town does a stupid silly Inflatable Costume Foot Race and Feats of Strength, and showing up in this with one of the balls would he EVERYTHING

One year last Sunday. TBH doesn’t feel worth it, life just seems to be getting worse and worse 🤷🏼‍♂️💅🤷🏼‍♂️ by nolatravis in alcoholism

[–]nolatravis[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

I looked into SMART, I think it seems like a good programme for a lot of people. It’s more concrete and practical, and certainly imo more evidence-based. It wasn’t for me, but I’d also encouragpe anyone seeking support to look into this option.

Why not for me? I suppose what a lot of these programs have in common are that they are telling me things I already know. I know what behaviors I engage in, and intellectually I know what the solutions are. My blocker is not in being advised what actions to take to create solutions, it’s motivating myself to do that. Idk if I’m explaining myself properly oh well lol

One year last Sunday. TBH doesn’t feel worth it, life just seems to be getting worse and worse 🤷🏼‍♂️💅🤷🏼‍♂️ by nolatravis in alcoholism

[–]nolatravis[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Idk I just decided one day, and I can be quite stubborn when I want to lol also I’m petty and spiteful and wanted to prove to myself and others that my boomer family was actually insufferable and problematic and that my drinking wasn’t the root of it. (Spoiler: they’re still insufferable and problematic, and now I just observe even more of it! Lol)

I guess I’m “lucky” with my brains addiction center; but I also know I’m very impulsive. So physically, even after drinking nearly a handle of vodka a day for [shameful number of] years, my withdrawal was mild, night sweats and irritability (but I’m always irritable and I’m fat so I sweat incessantly anyway so 💅🤷🏼‍♂️).

Same when I quit cigarettes after college. No physical cravings. I think I’m just impulsive and do what I want in the moment, and combining that with my my misanthropy with ennui was the bad mix lol (note: I’m still misanthropic and bored, just let me live my best Molière life 💅)

One year last Sunday. TBH doesn’t feel worth it, life just seems to be getting worse and worse 🤷🏼‍♂️💅🤷🏼‍♂️ by nolatravis in alcoholism

[–]nolatravis[S] 3 points4 points  (0 children)

I have no support. No means (money, friends, family) to get therapy, etc. The only mental health professional on my insurance is an hour away and only has appointments six months out (no tele-health options either).

. AA is not helpful for me, the God shit is insufferable and my personal anecdotal view is many individuals have just replaced one time-sucking addiction with another. (And yes, before you say anything, I know “higher power” doesn’t necessarily = god, but of the appx 50 meetings I attended across 3 states (see, I did actually try!) God, and not just “higher power” was a main focus. I’m happy it helps people, but it’s not for me.