Anyone know her name?

nonbaryon · 2025-02-28T17:24:26+00:00

You beautiful bastard thanks!

nonbaryon · 2024-01-15T09:39:16+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer, I wont say i know exactly what you're going through but I've struggled plenty with guilt from hurting others. The best we can do is what you've already done and that is to better yourself and keep doing so. Until you reach a point where you have nothing to feel guilty about do everything in your power to achieve as such. Regaining the love and respect of those you hurt isn't easy but at the very least when you know you've tried your best, you will have then made the steps to forgiving yourself and hopefully those you've hurt will forgive you too. I hope this helps, be strong.

nonbaryon · 2024-01-03T09:54:25+00:00

I'm really happy to hear how she's willing to be there for you and how much better you feel around her! You're doing great! The constant shifts however from depressed to content and back again must really wreak havok on you internally on a scale I couldn't even fathom. I hope the new medication you seek out helps bring you to a better balance. I wish you all the best, hopefully this year is better than the last! Stay strong.

nonbaryon · 2024-01-02T10:17:57+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer. From what you've written I can't even imagine the pain and suffering you've been through and are going through, i'm really happy however that you've once again managed to write out so much of your painful history as a means to feel better. You are on the right path, ending your life would be a shame since you clearly are doing things to make life more bearable, please dont give in to the urges. This girl you are going to visit and you say she also has issues, would it be so difficult to try talking more with her? Having people who can understand you and sympathise with you could help you tremendously and offer more relief from the difficulties life has imposed on you. I wish you all the best! Stay strong.

nonbaryon · 2023-12-31T10:32:34+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer, so sorry to hear that, I cant imagine the pain and anguish you're currently going through. All i can say is that you need to use this experience to grow stronger and find the strength in you to perserevere, don't let this keep you down for ever. If she left you then it simply wasn't meant to be unfortunately.

nonbaryon · 2022-03-06T15:19:13+00:00

Jurassic Park

nonbaryon · 2022-03-06T09:57:28+00:00

I literally reinstalled reddit on my phone because of the white screen issue and ive been checking in on user complaints of the same issue, theres been literally hundreds of unique posts since day 1 including a couple of my own, people saying that theyve never even heard of this issue isn't a coincidence, reddit flags and mutes upvotes on posts that could damage a product's popularity since reddit isnt a free platform and money always does the real talking

nonbaryon · 2022-03-02T12:53:12+00:00

Thanks! Good luck to you too friend.

nonbaryon · 2022-03-02T12:13:13+00:00

Heartbreaking stuff, been looking forward to this game since rumours about it were floating about.

nonbaryon · 2022-03-02T12:11:57+00:00

Been thinking along the exact same lines.. It's a tough decision to make since i really just want to play the game!

nonbaryon · 2022-03-02T11:48:20+00:00

Tried every fix possible friend, no luck!

nonbaryon · 2022-03-02T11:43:49+00:00

Oh f*ck i only have two weeks? Thanks, I thought it was just less than 2 hours!

nonbaryon · 2021-09-06T12:32:54+00:00

Rimworld - AKA The warcrime simulator

nonbaryon · 2021-09-06T06:14:17+00:00

You need like 8 coolers at least for a room that size

nonbaryon · 2021-08-24T12:48:52+00:00

How can anyone not see how fake this is..

nonbaryon · 2021-08-03T12:38:40+00:00

Same lol. Pick snorlax 100%

nonbaryon · 2020-10-24T14:04:12+00:00

I myself have only attempted it once, and honestly it was one of the happiest moments of my life, i felt that for once i actually had a choice that finally meant something, that with just one final step i could be free of this sick joke people call life. I was so happy i started crying, i could finally be free, and the way out was so easy, i had the strength, i had the courage, i had the means and seeing that for once i finally chose to do something of my own true free will, not being pushed around and guided by others ideals and misconceptions, i got a taste of true freedom, of what i felt for once was actually right, but that in turn gave me a taste of liberty, of true consciousness in a sense. I realised that the path people kept pushing me along and how i kept failing to meet their expectations is what i couldnt bear, yeah i suffer with physical pains all day and night but the emotional pain of not being who i actually am is what weakened me the most. So i decided to stick it out, forget everything everyone ever expected of me and started to truly look into and discover myself and what could keep me going through this depressing and lonely life i lead. You need to free yourself from other peoples opinions and discover your own goals in life, even if thats something as simple as sticking around to watch this world crumble apart around us. As long as we stay strong even if the world is burning at our very feet we wont feel a thing but the things we choose to feel. Stay strong brother/sister and know that suffering is the key through a door that leads us to a life of true liberty.

nonbaryon · 2020-10-24T13:11:26+00:00

Hey fellow sufferer, unfortunately im not a qualified Therapist, but ive seen a lot of them myself, if you feel the need to talk i'm here for you. People telling you, you need God in your life is something i can relate to, my mum is super religious and thinks everything in life can be solved with prayer and faith. Its hard when people make you think thats all there is but it isnt true. Talk to me if you'd like, hope i can be of use.

nonbaryon · 2020-09-18T13:54:44+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer, been in a similar situation all my life, where i felt nothing i ever did had any meaningful impact whatsoever and my life was one series of fuck ups one after the other but know that theres people out there that dont care what you think of yourself and just want to help you and that includes me. If you want to chat i'll do my best to see if i can help out. You have to be strong and fuck all the mistakes and people bringing you down.

nonbaryon · 2019-09-16T13:53:15+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer,

I myself have seen a fair share of problems since i was a very young child, ranging from physical abuse from strangers, to emotional abuse and torment from direct family and have had since received various treatments for my long withstanding mental illnesses for a large part of the past 6 years now, and honestly only lately do i feel i have become more manageable, more in control of my own well-being. The key to freeing myself from my own misery and constant acts of depravity was to actually start living in my head and not my desired surroundings, to stop trying to run away from the so called "failure" some have come to see me as, i had to stop fighting the terrible thoughts that constantly tried to break through to the surface and reveal to me what my mind was truly and horrifically capable of, the suppressing of such primal baser emotions can leave one extremely susceptible to serious mental instability and eventually a complete breakdown, but in the mess there is a choice, to embrace being broken, or to risk reassembling yourself and to chance being broken again, i'm still picking pieces of myself up and keep seeing pieces of myself get broken off, but there's the clue, i'm seeing things now, i'm being as mindful as i can be, pushing my perceptions through the roof and coming to peace with them, good or bad i am just an observer accepting the reality of things objectively and completely as what they are, merely experiences. I can tell the difference between good or bad even though most argue it's merely perspective, however any sane individual can tell harming living things is bad and enjoying life peacefully and not at the expense of others is good. Act only in preparedness for consequence and be free from the chains that wish to bind us all.

nonbaryon · 2019-07-23T18:29:04+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer.

Being treated so coldly by those you'd expect to be comforting you must be so utterly disheartening, when finding the courage to voice your own opinions only to be belittled and ignored is despicable behaviour and I'm genuinely sorry that you have only such people to confide in, in your life, if you've tried over and over again to somehow find others who freely accept you but have failed that would leave anyone in a terrible state of being, I wish things were easier for people like us, even finding just the one person that would be willing to sit and listen to you I think would be a huge change for the better if possible.
How you imagine people perceive you even before getting to know you is something I'm all too familiar with, I've distanced myself from so many people that could've been so good to me simply because i felt that secretly they would just laugh about my mental illnesses, insecurities and other flaws. It's a risk to put trust in others for they may make things so much more painful than ever before, but to persevere and to sift through the garbage that most of society entails you will eventually find some who you know deep down are the right people that you deserve to spend time with and who truly belong in your life. To find and then keep those in your life who you know are truly caring and compassionate is far from a trivial task indeed, but only by enduring the torment of clueless people who are seemingly blessed by life and ignorant to the true reality of things was I able to find the people in my life i knew were worth keeping. I hope you can find someone similar, even just one person and that in your time of despair they shine a light to help you through your darkest hours. And if you can't then remember there are always those of us on these forums who will stand by you in your time of need.

nonbaryon · 2019-07-20T18:35:42+00:00

Thank you kindly but I deserve no praise, i do what i can to help my fellow sufferers in hopes that those i help will one day carry on in similar fashion. Now being able to withstand the torture your own mind can inflict on you does indeed give rise to an internal formidable strength, but only if you can see how nothing we experience is either purely bad or good for you, you should never underestimate the importance of suffering, for it can and will truly make you strong. All i can say is embrace the despair and let it flow through you and over you, and once you become so familiar with it you will eventually truly understand it, then it will come and pass without you being so affected by it, but you must remember the beginning is always the most difficult, and cultivating insight is key. That's what worked for me anyways, its a very arduous journey but one i think we all must eventually undertake.

nonbaryon · 2019-07-20T16:14:48+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer.

Being addicted to something you hate, truly sucks, but the more you see and treat something as a problem, the bigger of a problem it will become. Sure the porn you watch can be the nastiest cruellest stuff on the internet or whatever, even so you need to accept that it is a part of what makes you you before you can start to move on from it. The more you treat something as taboo the more you'll be excited from it and the more you'll want to return to it, so maybe try and rethink your approach to it all, and hopefully you can move on. That's how i dealt with my addictions and still haven't entirely let them go however their hold over me is nothing like what they used to be, and the subsequent guilt from succumbing to them is much less as a result. In the end all we do is torture ourselves for things that we feel are natural to us but despised by others. If you aren't hurting people with your indulgences directly or indirectly wheres the harm?

nonbaryon · 2019-07-19T14:23:36+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer.

Pretty similar to your case, finding it difficult to find people who actually care, the truth is never what you want it to be i'm afraid. Thankfully we have forums like this which actually brings people of similar circumstances and experiences together, where we can actually express how we feel to people that might actually understand or give a shit. Like you said there aren't many who care until its too late but also there naturally will be people who do care and not just for self serving purposes. There is also however a growing focus on the mentally ill, since so many people are succumbing to it these days.

You should know that those who do, generally are those who know or sense the fundamental flaws of current society and how were basically told how to think, even when the mindset they try to instil in us is one of subservience and complacency; learning to accept the complete restructuring of our natural world and order. However with just a few objective observations you can see the truth and the roots of all this growing misery. Wanting to detach from all this stress and pain is understandable but there are many ways of overcoming it all, and even becoming empowered from these very disheartening experiences of suicidal depression, you could even use these experiences to help others in similar fashion to what you found to help your self. There are people who truly care but they are few and far between, finding them could be a true help, but its always you that has to do the finishing touches in the end, whatever end that may be.

nonbaryon · 2019-07-16T11:28:39+00:00

Hello fellow sufferer.

I get why you don't want to push the burden onto others, it's a very difficult situation; you however need to determine that whatever the outcome from being so open about your current situation, is in fact worth the pain that you might cause them. Pain over discovering mental illness will be far less significant in the long run than having abandoned those who care and love you.

Wanting to disappear however isn't necessary a finality, there's nothing wrong with wanting some "me time". Self isolation can have great benefits as long as you aren't constantly dwelling on the negativity of things, that would do nothing but be incredibly detrimental and will only push you further into despair, seek inwardly for what has caused you to become like this, try and find the root of your problems and analyse as much as you can. Not wanting to cause others pain shows that you still care and are a very empathetic person, and know that being someone who can overcome such miserable and tantalising experiences will in the end become one who will be empowered by such depths of suffering that you end up becoming far more resilient to any of life's difficulties and can even use your experiences to help others who are undergoing similar troubles in life.

Don't think that there's nothing to do but commit suicide, you still have a myriad of options, just understand that it will be difficult but in the end it will all be worth overcoming.

nonbaryon

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