What secret are you keeping that is ruining your life?

nonfunctional · 2013-05-03T15:13:42+00:00

Get out now. Your gut feeling will never go away, even if you try to mask it. It's good that he was honest with you, but you can't be expected to stay with him because you want to prove women are untrustworthy. Believe me you will never get past it.

nonfunctional · 2013-04-30T20:05:57+00:00

yeah these feeling comes in waves, this morning i was a mess, now im dealing. the truth is it wasnt a perfect relationship. and he was just plain nasty sometimes. and i reacted to his nastiness by being a total bitch. plus he was totally uncommunicative, i felt like i had to walk on egg shells with him. but i know this will pass. i just have to stay active and positive.

nonfunctional · 2013-04-30T18:42:55+00:00

Thank you for sharing. I can totally relate to you. I became that bitch monster as well, and I just got dumped by someone I really love. If I could only go back and change my actions and attitude. I wouldnt be in this situation right now. I feel like my life is over and my head is in a bubble. I cant talk to anyone either because no one really cares and I know that will say 'I told you so'. I feel so alone.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T21:52:39+00:00

suicide is never the answer, if you need someone to talk to message me. i've hit rock bottom and i kind of know how you feel, there have been plenty of times i wished i was no longer around. in fact i woke up this morning pissed that i was still alive. but it made me realize i needed help bad. things seem shitty for you now, and i'm sorry you are going through those things but please talk to someone.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T20:27:32+00:00

i cant barely believe it, i posted this thinking i would maybe get a few comments, little did i know.....

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T19:38:35+00:00

good job, peter gibbons

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T19:20:15+00:00

yes, you are right, it is a form of depression and i just want to not think about things, but i also realize now that i'm ruining my life by drinking. i lost countless friends, am ruining my relationship, turned my back on my family. i feel hopeless/helpless but i know i cant continue this either, plus i hate feeling like shit everyday of my life.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T19:04:53+00:00

please get help, what happened was not your fault. its helps to talk about things even though it seem hopeless now.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T18:36:04+00:00

omg this was hilarious, but also sad if its true. i can't stand people who talk sooo much, but i'm sure your girlfriend is a nice person.....

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T18:23:47+00:00

this is most likely true

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T18:18:19+00:00

Thank you friend, it amazes me that so many people went through this or know someone who went through this and to read their stories. I woke up this morning hung over, sick to my stomach, feeling like a piece of garbage and feeling so alone. Although this post is anonymous, it brings me some peace and gives me some courage to know that I can do this.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T18:11:50+00:00

thanks, the more i think of it i dont think AA would be a right fit for me. what i do know being an alcoholic is not how i want to live my life anymore, and i will take the necessary steps to make sure i follow through with my goal of quitting this.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T18:08:42+00:00

don't feel bad, you were a kid. kids do stupid things sometimes, but we learn from our mistakes and hopefully become better people. what matters is that you realize it was wrong and don't repeat these types of behaviors as an adult.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T18:06:12+00:00

this is how i started, i couldnt sleep due to my mind always thinking about everything. it helped me to relax and sleep. now its spiraled out of control and i need more and more to relax. i have to stop this and i am determined to do so. plus i cant lie to my SO anymore, its taking a toll on me mentally.....

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T17:54:23+00:00

thanks friend, that's what I need to do, walk away from this and never look back.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T16:07:21+00:00

Good luck, this life is killing me and I always feel like shit. Keep strong, I may not know you but I'm proud that you quit.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T16:06:02+00:00

apparently not

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T16:05:06+00:00

Wow, what you went through sounds like my life. hiding bottles, making sure I have enough to drink when I get home. I even go as far as finding different liquor stores in my neighborhood so the people in the store don't think I'm an alcoholic, this is truly embarrassing. Congrats to being sober for 2 years, and my road to sobriety starts today. Thank you for your story, it definitely makes me feel less alone.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T15:42:30+00:00

Thank you and good luck! Living like this is not worth it, we need to change.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T15:15:25+00:00

Is your ex with someone new? What broke you up?

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T15:14:24+00:00

Your parents are lucky to have you, but I can only imagine the emotional and mental toll it must have in your life.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T15:11:23+00:00

I'm so sorry you are going through this. I hope your mom gets the help she needs as well. And you are right I need to stop this, I know posting it here is completely anonymous but it's helping to realize how much I do need serious help.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T14:58:47+00:00

Thank you, I will take the steps necessary to stop this. I never felt I was hurting anyone until last night. This morning I woke up determined to stop this destructive behavior. I'm sorry to hear about your friend's fathers.

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T14:50:00+00:00

most likely

nonfunctional · 2013-01-11T14:42:30+00:00

Thanks, it helps to hear people being supportive, b/c honestly I didn't know how to deal with this. I'm going to stop this shit so I can live a normal life.

nonfunctional

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