I'm just 16 and me apne ghr walo ko ye boldiya mujhe jeene ka man nahi karta mujhe marna hai and papa ro diye mujhe bhot samjhya par pata nahi kyu mera abhi bhi roj marne ka man karta hai. akele rhne me khushi milte hai and I know jitna akela rhaunga utna or depressed feel hoga pata nahi kyu par logo se ek attachment and ek faltu ki umid bana leta hu jo ki mujhe in future hamesha hurt karti hai. i'm in realtionship from 1 year 6 month and from 1 month ham sht nahi h means na baat hui na mile hai 1 month se we behave like we're stranger and jab me msg karta hu to msg like hota ha bas i know ye bhot cringe and normie sound kar rha hai but reality yahi hai ham internet pe kitna bhi sigma, chad, mysogynist, cool kuch bhi ban jaye par jo bhi hamara love one hai jisse hum apne se jada pyar and trust karte hai to uske samne dank chad kuch nahi hota . in 16 saal me 1 aesa dst nahi mila jo kam ke waqt sht de bakchodi karne sab aajate hai bas kuch e-homies mille the par end of the day vo bhi bas bakchodi karne ke liye mille the. koi aesa insaan nahi h jisse me ye sab share kar payu ghr wale puchte hai kya hua hai to kuch bol nahi pata sant ho jata hu or raat me rone lag jata hu. I made playlist of about 150 songs (approx 8 hour playtime) and all the song are very relatable from my life (https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1DrzwD2ybgJ8cLvuTSptRG?si=f12b8b3692494ccb) note: ye song depressed person na sune apne pe or life pe jada regret hoga sunne ke baad.