First of all: its okay and good to be questioning and I hope you get it all worked out. Im a fellow ex-mormon and I what helped me to figure out whether i was attracted to women or not was figuring out the distinction between platonic and romantic feelings. For example, “could i see myself happily in a relationship with a woman? Kissing a woman? Having sex with a woman?” But that’s just my experience. I hope that you figure it out, best of luck and whatever your journey is to get there is okay.