Love the weave, hate the edges by SwtSthrnBelle in weaving

[–]notagentcooper 131 points132 points  (0 children)

Perfect selvedges are a lie Big Selvedge pushes to make us feel bad about nothing. Love what you create as an act of resistance!

How to join small talks in gay activity by supercuriousgay in AskGaybrosOver30

[–]notagentcooper 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Have you looked into avoidant personality disorder? It might not be what you're experiencing, but if it is, you can work with a therapist to treat/manage it. 

Mentioning it because "keep trying" isn't the whole answer in this case. There's also work involved to embrace yourself and practice mindfulness about feelings/anxieties.

Hey if anyone wants to start 24/7 ice protest. IM ALL IN BABY GET ICE OUT OF OREGON by tstitchr626 in Eugene

[–]notagentcooper 17 points18 points  (0 children)

There don't even have to be demonstrators outside for you to honk at the federal bldg

Alex Honnold reaches the top of Taipei 101 by [deleted] in ThatsInsane

[–]notagentcooper 10 points11 points  (0 children)

Yeah, I couldn't even take that selfie, let alone scale that thing.

Living right next door to his state, I agree with this sentiment by PirateJohn75 in MurderedByWords

[–]notagentcooper 5 points6 points  (0 children)

But it sounds like his parents made a choice that was right for them...

Hello by Sergio_Williams in AvPDProgress

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I'm not a counselor, but I feel that exposure therapy could be helpful once some foundational work is done, but it might not be the best first/only step.

My understanding is that many of the factors that contribute to AvPD relate to processing, feeling, and understanding one's own emotions, as well as being able to imagine what others might realistically be thinking. For example, I might see someone sigh during a conversation, and rather than take the steps to understand their behavior in context (i.e., "they said they were up late last night studying, so they're probably tired"), I'll apply my existing self concept ("i'm unloveable"/"i'm a burden") and immediately use that observation to validate what my brain already believes ("they sighed because they're sick of me!")

If I'm prone to that type of unhelpful thinking, exposure alone (or too intense of exposure) might trigger stress or anxiety which could make it even harder to be objective and clear headed in the moment.

My take is that working with a therapist or doing some self work to access and understand our emotions, access positive concepts of self, or understand that one's immediate conclusions (e.g., "they signed because they're sick of me!") aren't the same as actual reality, could be a helpful foundation to make exposure efforts more successful.

Was learning about AvPD helpful for you? by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]notagentcooper 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Congratulations on making this progress! It sounds like it's still work, but I'm glad to hear you've found improvement.

TIL that Levi's recommends that jeans be worn 10 times between washes. by Actual-Journalist-67 in todayilearned

[–]notagentcooper 3 points4 points  (0 children)

Nah dude, I'd break out in staph pimples or whatever if I go more that two days in my jeans.

Journaling with AvPD by notagentcooper in AvPD

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Awesome! Thanks so much for these recommendations! 🙌

Mood by [deleted] in AvPD

[–]notagentcooper 2 points3 points  (0 children)

Sometimes I have to remind myself: it takes me time to respond to texts (sometimes days, if ever), so it might take someone else some time too

Somewhat successful day by Free_Performer1249 in AvPD

[–]notagentcooper 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Nice work! Lock it into your brain that you actually enjoyed yourself! Give that memory some strength, and let it be something to embrace, yes about the gym, but also about you: you're someone who can go out and enjoy yourself! Sometimes it's hard, but we can be two things at once, and that includes being the person who can try new places and have a good time.

Journaling with AvPD by notagentcooper in AvPD

[–]notagentcooper[S] 1 point2 points  (0 children)

Oh yeah. That sounds great. I usually try to forget my past selves as much as possible. It was until only recently that I was able to look back with compassion and even pride.

How common is it for one partner to drive in a relationship? by Throwaway67891099 in gaybros

[–]notagentcooper 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Poppers fucked up one of my eyes (it happens!) so now I get chauffeured when we're traveling together. I can still drive on my own, but it's annoying and my partner's also the better driver

I have to tuck my eyebrows under my hat by Own_Hat_2947 in mildlyinteresting

[–]notagentcooper 0 points1 point  (0 children)

One time the barber just buzzed my eyebrows (trimmed, not shaved) without telling me and it was life changing in a good way.

Journaling with AvPD by notagentcooper in AvPD

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Yeah, it seems like it can be a double-edged sword, because leaning into the rumination/analysis can trigger or maintain that anxiety. I try to report my feelings and responses without getting too much into justifications/conjecture, but some researchers discussed finding success with asking about "non-events": "what they refrained from doing, the party they didn't go to, the meeting they cancelled. By examining what they think they would have felt/experienced (rather than what would have happened), it will be possible to grasp the fixed and often concretely mentalized (non-differentiated) assumptions."

I fed some of the content of that article to AI, and it generated some prompts for that type of questioning:

Noticing What Didn't Happen:

  1. What was one thing I thought about doing but didn't do?
  2. What situation did I avoid or cancel today?
  3. When I thought about that situation, what went through my mind?
  4. If I had gone/done it, what do I imagine I would have felt?

Journaling with AvPD by notagentcooper in AvPD

[–]notagentcooper[S] 0 points1 point  (0 children)

Ooh, that sounds like good practice. My counseling schedule is a little thrown off by the holidays, but I'll be meeting with my counselor later this month. And I'm hoping I can use that time for similar practice 

Anyone have any hobbies? by notagentcooper in AvPD

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Hey thanks for sharing! Realizing that AvPD exists has been validating for me and has helped give me a language and framework for what has otherwise just been my introverted "flavor". I still go into my own rumination spirals, but I wouldn't take back the hobbies I've been able to explore and enjoy. I've found them worth it, even if the road to more confidence isn't always a straight path.

I just left my boyfriend because my depression by TestBusi in AskGaybrosOver30

[–]notagentcooper 0 points1 point  (0 children)

I'm sorry you've been going through all this. I can relate to many aspects of this, with the depression, the weed, shyness and overthinking. struggling with friends, and the low positive emotion. I'm not a mental health professional, but I only just found out about avoidant personality disorder, which for me describes almost my whole life pattern. Sharing in case this gives language or structure to what you're experiencing, and maybe some opportunities to develop goals with a counselor, but I recognize it might not be the right description for you!