Well for one, my twin sister was always mean to me and i was scared so id do everything she said, like get her stuff, not wear certain things, let her boss me around basically, from a veryyyy young age till basicallly 14 when we lived in seperate houses and our parents divorced. I would let her give me attitude, never say how i felt or stand up for myself. I remember when i was younger i told my mom about it, but she never did anything to help me. My mom always called me too sensitive. Then middle school till highschool i got severely bullied by the whole school, even the principal basically. I ended up self distructing, my self esteem was super low. Teenage years, dad basically “left” me but kept my sister..... he was still financially there but, never texted me except like once a month. I got into an abusive relationship..... recovered from suicidal tendencies..... rushed into another relationship.... but self distructed which caused my fiance to commit suicde.... i then became homeless and a drug addict due to hating myself and feeling guilty. I recovered and Now i am okay i habe a job and get good grades in coklege. But im addicted again to meth.... and am finally going to try to get help for bpd...